Decompression and Security

We’ve been quieter in our home. It was needed after the clearing spell and all that was unleashed. Who unleashed it all exactly? Well, I guess that would be us. As I said in my last piece, I now understand why we waited six months to work this magic.

To be clear, I am not blaming myself for being hacked, the rat, or the doggie drama. I am not into victim blaming or the ideology that I create every iota of my reality. This Universe is much more complex than that. My reactions to the events playing out in my life are where I am most powerful. How I choose to respond, whether I bypass, go into fear, or feel what needs to be felt without judgment, allowing for the space and time to heal so I can shift to joy and take action from there, determines much about the path ahead.

And I’ve got to say, this was exactly the progression of events - from denial/bypass to moving quickly into fear (hanging out there for a day or two) coupled with feeling it all, and then moving farther along into healing and taking actions from a clear and joyful place, with some bouncing back and forth between all three along the way.

We are unwinding the knots.

My original Facebook account, the one that was hacked, is now fully back in my possession and secured. Right before midnight on Monday night, I suddenly felt like it was time to try to log into it again after almost one hundred failed attempts to regain control since it was swiped out from under me four days earlier. Voila! Success! Facebook took me through the steps to get in. It took me another day or so to confidently feel it was fully under my control.

I was persistent in my efforts while locked out. I took every avenue available to me on Facebook again and again, confirmed my identity multiple times, “secured my account” every time I was asked, entered every code sent (most of all of this failing in each moment), took every suggestion I found on Reddit and other places online, and would not take “no” for an answer every time the A.I. at Facebook/Meta said there was nothing to be done, instead replying to them, “If you can not handle this for me, please forward my request to someone who can.”

I don’t know exactly how I am back in, but I am, and I will not be questioning this magic. If you unfriended me and/or blocked me, you can now unblock me and follow me or send me a friend request here. If the link does not work it’s because you blocked me and you’ll have to remove me from your blocked list on FB to reconnect with me there. I am keeping my new account, but it will be a backup. I am also retiring our business page at the end of the year.

The rat is still running around, but I have a feeling they will be dispatched soon. I just remembered to talk with them telepathically and asked The Faeries to please help them find their way out as well.

And Sookie

It’s been over a week since she attacked Zoey and it’s mostly like it never happened. This does not mean we are done unraveling the underlying issues that contributed nor does it mean it will never happen again, but there has been peace within the pack. Whatever territory issues are coming up seem to be sorting themselves out.

We are providing Sookie with more structure and alone time and she seems to appreciate it. We are also doing a solid pack walk once a day, running some training exercises with everyone, and lots of other positive reinforcements with them all along with keeping ourselves peaceful.

Sookie is looking more and more to Jon and me as to what her next move should be which means he and I need to communicate with her without hesitation or confusion. She jumped on the couch the other night, right next to Zoey, and I stood up quickly, concerned that there could be a negative interaction. She interpreted this that she had done something wrong, and I was coming there to correct her. She started to pounce on Zoey and I did a quick sing-songy, “No. Come on Sooks!” as I walked towards the kitchen. She immediately redirected to me, jumped off of the couch, and followed me. Zoey jumped off as well and sought safety in Jon’s office. I was very relieved she corrected herself and was reminded about what The Faeries had said about being patient. We are recreating our dynamic here and this will take some time.

The throughline in everything that’s come up after the spell is a need for increased security, meaning we are looking at where we lack security within ourselves and how we can provide it to ourselves and the pack.

Flower essences (Green Hope Farm is a favorite resource), calming scents, and the sound machine in the bedroom I use while sleeping all have helped Sookie to feel safer and more confident. They’ve done the same for Zoey, Teddy, Jon, and myself. Sookie was released from Rabies watch jail today, (10 days at home and on leash-only while outside quarantine mandated by the county), and although they have missed romping through the 44-acre dog parks in Lake County, the value of the hour-long pack walks has been made clear to us. We are exploring other avenues to help Sookie with her anxiety as well.

We’ve rested a lot over the past ten days, especially Sookie. She is very smart which contributes to her anxiety. I find it common that beings with acute intelligence often have increased anxiety and let’s face it, there is a lot for us humans to be anxious about right now. The companion beings in our lives pick up on all that we are carrying.

Jon and I have not given enough consideration to the toll the move took on us. It’s a “yes and…….” thing. Yes, we are having a lot of fun in Chicago, there is much magic unfolding, AND losing our home of fifteen years, our twenty-year life in California, and moving cross-country was hard and long and painful, and we are all still healing.

This society does not value rest, stillness, and simply being. We all need more of it. In this house, it’s a priority, especially right now.

We are all decompressing as the moon wanes, the days grow shorter, and the nights get colder.

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