Rageful white dudes were everywhere the last few days and seemed to be all around me, especially on the road. On Friday evening I drove to the beach, took my shoes off, and put my feet in the lake.
There is nothing like a body of water - lake, ocean, river, pond, creek, stream, etc. It’s been the most healing and grounding element since I was a little girl. We’d hang out at the park district pool in Mt Prospect all day, most days in the summer, and by the end of them my lips would be tinted blue and my fingertips pruned from all of the time I spent in the water. Sometimes we’d go home for dinner and then go back for a nightly swim. This was the best version of my mother, the one who embraced fun and gave it back to us.
We’ve got a woman running for President and every single person who has not dealt with their issues with their mother (meaning all of us) is going to get triggered and lash out at some point or another. It’ll show itself as misogyny and the hardest for me to bear will be those identifying as female projecting their own internalized misogyny onto Vice President Harris and the world around her. I am sad to admit I had more than a few moments of this with Hillary Clinton when she ran in 2016, and if I had it to do over, I would let myself recognize it for what it was, internalized misogyny projected outward.
Tulsi Gabbard is an excellent example of a nonwhite woman choosing to endorse a racist rapist (let’s not say his name here). She is also an excellent example of what brainwashing and being a cult member can look like and a religious conservative one at that, Hindu, Christian, New Age (plenty of those as well), etc it’s all the same story repackaged to fit the particulars of the cult structure.
I am pretty brokenhearted at the hordes of women continuing to support the right in any way, shape, or form.
The 8:8: Lion’s Gate Portal peaks on Thursday, meaning this week could be even more intense as far as the drama goes. Couple this with Mercury having just gone retrograde, Pluto still retrograde in Aquarius, Saturn still retrograde in Pisces, Neptune still retrograde in Pisces, and Chiron still retrograde in Aries, and well, that’s a lot of navel-gazing energy that might start driving us all a bit batty. (Hahaha, as if this is a future event).
I also have my eye on September 1st as this is when Pluto, while still in retrograde, moves back into Capricorn for the last time in our lifetime and Uranus goes retrograde in Taurus. This will be followed by two major eclipses, a Lunar in Pisces on Sept 17th/18th and a Solar in Aries on October 2nd with an almost but not quite Lunar Eclipse on October 17th. (Almost but not quite - I am really wondering what this will trigger).
Things will look and feel differently during and after these astrological events unfold. This is not to say that Harris and Trump (fine, I’ll say the weirdo’s name) will not still be the candidates. I am also not predicting disasters here. What I am looking at is the energy and how it may all unfold and what healing may become available to us all as more and more reveals itself.
Jon and I surrendered to the unconsciously enforced vacation we are having and took ourselves out to Casa Yari yesterday for brunch. It’s some of the best food in the city in our opinion, and this city has a lot of great food. We’ve been having a blast enjoying it and then eating salads at home for days to balance it all out. The organic produce at the farmers’ markets has been excellent and the fruit is out of this world.
One of my favorite farmers is Maria from Parra Farms located in Benton Harbor, MI, with organic stone fruits, including cherries, and all kinds of berries along with every vegetable you could want. She’s a domestic abuse survivor who owns her farm putting her with the 9% of women-owned farms and the even smaller category of 4% of nonwhite women-owned farms. I see her on Mondays at the Edgewater Market in the city.
And back to mothers. I am still processing all of my shit with my own. It’s a lot, and that is pretty much all I can say about it right now.
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This is definitely the time to be healing that mother wound. I’m actually doing a collaboration book on that very subject.