We Missed the Blooms Last Year by One Week Monday Morning Check-In Post
How Are You??!! With a Video Excerpt Included
For weeks, the trees have gone from bare to budded to exploding with a rainbow of pastel-colored blooms, to suddenly a full canopy of green just in the last few days. Baby rabbits hop across our backyard, goslings learn to swim in the pond right before our eyes, and while with a client last week, I observed a fledgling bird learn to fly as it fluttered up to the small bush and fell back to the ground again and again until finally it made it into the bush and stayed there resting.
Middle spring is obvious magic in a way that early spring hides its magic. What was working below has come to life in extraordinary beauty.
The dogs are enjoying the changing seasons, finding fun in the newness of their world, delighting in rolling in the fresh green grass, and running into the pond at the dog park once more as a great blue heron takes flight across its expanse.
On Saturday, we cycled through. It’s been one year since our arrival here.
Last year, while experiencing the anxiety around losing pieces of my memory, amid losing our rental in Ojai and our life in California, I also felt the fear that I was “running out of time”. As my memory returned, this fear about time began to abate and has mostly left. It’s another telepathic link-up with my mother, as her Alzheimer’s began to accelerate last year, and her awareness grew that her life was winding down.
“Time is a construct. Time is an illusion,” we hear it from those in other realms who do not experience the journey of linear time in an aging body on the ground. Yet, the passage of time is real here, and the toll it takes upon us can often be seen. The past five years have been more challenging than most, and I see the effects upon everyone as I look around me. It appears to be an acceleration of the aging process brought on by living through the pandemic and the politics of the day. I do imagine the possibility of rejuvenation exists, facilitated more easily when healing is brought to the fore.
We dove into some spellwork to counter the authoritarianism trying to take hold during our April 24th “WTF????!!!! Redux” event. My gratitude to
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What a wild time we are truly living through right now. I thought things would slow down after the eclipses… wrong. Then I thought maybe after the retrogrades ended…wrong. Then I thought, well surely after we come out of their shadows…yet to be determined but it’s not feeling likely. This time is just wildly potent and, at least in my own personal life, continues to ripple and change in surprising and upending and unexpected ways. I think often of what the Ps said that things likely won’t slow or land really until the fall and that, on a larger scale, it will be years.
I started my bleed last night, so my body is in a lot of pain right now with cramps. I also saw a friend last night who has been a huge part of my life for the past 7 years and something just felt very different. Most of our relationship has been over the phone as we live in different places, but something felt fundamentally different and changed when I saw him in person. The resonance felt changed and almost like I want to take a break from our relating for a while. I almost can’t believe I’m saying that as it’s come in so quickly. I don’t want to move rashly, so I’m sitting with it, but there will likely be a challenging conversation ahead for us. And that will definitely change my support system and relational landscape in huge ways, which also feels hard and unfortunate. My body is giving me such a clear “no” signal though, that I can’t ignore it.
In work things, I feel more clear than ever that my mission and purpose on this earth is “emotions.” If I boil it down to one word, that’s it. And of course we’re here to be, to exist, to experience, but to feel such a connection to a deeper purpose is new for me and I’m reveling in that clarity. I’m excited and scared but feeling more ready than ever to step into it. All I want to do is facilitate Inner Voice sessions, energy healing, family constellations, and somatic releasing. I want to channel and guide and help heal and open people to their own hearts and bodies. I’ve been playing with the idea of getting a job, but it feels like eating potato chips when you really want scalloped potatoes. It would fill my time, but not be the nourishing thing my body actually wants. So I’m getting closer in my body and system to actually just giving myself what I want, which is to be the healer and guide that I am. And that feels fun and new (and terrifying) but also more accessible than it has before which I’m enjoying.
Thanks for the space to share and be seen as always Nora. I love being a part of this community. Big green spring blessings to you and everyone! 💚🌿
Nora, thank you and this community for your loving support, your love. I'm in and out of clarity, clear thinking and tracking time and events. Today I saw the urologist who will be doing a procedure in a few days. And he had put in a Stent on the 28th to pass my kidney stone ( which still is there) anyway he held my hand and looked me in my eyes and said, you have been through a huge amount of physical and emotional trauma, to really take my healing slowly and kindly, I wish I could remember what exactly he said, but it was loving and allowing space for transformation. I feel like a beautiful object being gently tossed or rocked in a calm sea. Letting go until I find my way back to a shore where I will be placed in a position to stand and be a new version. And like Helen said, be able to be of service. Love to you.