“Turn left,” the disembodied voice beside my ear said as I drove home from running errands in the Southern California town of Encinitas seventeen years ago on the same day Jon was out for a long bike ride.
well, that waas beautiful. my favourite thing I've read of yours, ever. It will be shared with friends who will understand it.
This -- "This is an art form, to sit on the magical fence without falling into either the density of disconnection created by isolation on the one side, or the disconnection created by living up and out of the body in fantasy or mental illness on the other."
This is a description of my life for the past three years. I made a decision to follow that voice faithfully and unerringly -- I believe it's the voice of our passion guiding us to where we're meant to be, in ways mostly big but sometimes (at least seemingfy) small, as in your example.
But following that voice unerringly doesn't mean blind obedience or the surrender of my own discernment and small "s" self interest. That's been the journey -- that the voice doesn't just tell me things, but as part of an ongoing dialogue between us about what's best for the Universe and what I want/need for myself, which ought to be the same thing, but curiously, sometimes sort of kind of not. Except of course, yes. (I feel like I'm writing dadist poetry here, but you know what I mean. ALways sometimes no, think it's me but you know I know when it's a dream...)
I think for me I'm happy wherever it all goes, even if it goes wrong, because I wlil have lived a life drenched in passion and adventure and exploration, and that's, well, that's everything.
*when I say voice, it's often more of a body feeling. I used to think it had to be a voice, since that's the language people use, but I've come to see that "voice" manifests in many ways, including that ineffable feeling of "ought to" rightness that I think is what you're describing here.
I re-wrote that sentence you highlighted a few times until I felt it truly captured what I wanted to say. It's so meaningful that you would put it here in your comment.
And yes, the "voice" is more of internal sense of knowing for me now, a move from clairaudience to claircognizance.
I’ve seen what can happen if someone falls onto just one side. This has scarred me to my core.
Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m being reset. I don’t seem to remember anything anymore or I’m not integrating anything that I’ve learnt in my life and my life is just passing by. I feel so defeated to my core.
I’m scared of falling onto one side that I’m finding myself detaching from both the sides. I don’t know where I exist anymore.
Your post comes as the magic you are referring to. It asks me to get in tune with my trust. I hope I get past this and learn discernment to balance both sides.
Thank you for sharing. Paying attention and staying alert for the magic while remaining grounded in this physical experience is the key. Watch the signs. Don’t get caught up in the fear of unknown. When we feel squeezed, take that aggressive action being nudged our way. We are all in this together. 🙏🏻💕
well, that waas beautiful. my favourite thing I've read of yours, ever. It will be shared with friends who will understand it.
This -- "This is an art form, to sit on the magical fence without falling into either the density of disconnection created by isolation on the one side, or the disconnection created by living up and out of the body in fantasy or mental illness on the other."
This is a description of my life for the past three years. I made a decision to follow that voice faithfully and unerringly -- I believe it's the voice of our passion guiding us to where we're meant to be, in ways mostly big but sometimes (at least seemingfy) small, as in your example.
But following that voice unerringly doesn't mean blind obedience or the surrender of my own discernment and small "s" self interest. That's been the journey -- that the voice doesn't just tell me things, but as part of an ongoing dialogue between us about what's best for the Universe and what I want/need for myself, which ought to be the same thing, but curiously, sometimes sort of kind of not. Except of course, yes. (I feel like I'm writing dadist poetry here, but you know what I mean. ALways sometimes no, think it's me but you know I know when it's a dream...)
I think for me I'm happy wherever it all goes, even if it goes wrong, because I wlil have lived a life drenched in passion and adventure and exploration, and that's, well, that's everything.
*when I say voice, it's often more of a body feeling. I used to think it had to be a voice, since that's the language people use, but I've come to see that "voice" manifests in many ways, including that ineffable feeling of "ought to" rightness that I think is what you're describing here.
So beautiful, Faith. Thank you.
I re-wrote that sentence you highlighted a few times until I felt it truly captured what I wanted to say. It's so meaningful that you would put it here in your comment.
And yes, the "voice" is more of internal sense of knowing for me now, a move from clairaudience to claircognizance.
Thank you again :)
This is such a beautiful piece to wake up to!
I’ve seen what can happen if someone falls onto just one side. This has scarred me to my core.
Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m being reset. I don’t seem to remember anything anymore or I’m not integrating anything that I’ve learnt in my life and my life is just passing by. I feel so defeated to my core.
I’m scared of falling onto one side that I’m finding myself detaching from both the sides. I don’t know where I exist anymore.
Your post comes as the magic you are referring to. It asks me to get in tune with my trust. I hope I get past this and learn discernment to balance both sides.
I’m sending love, Nora!
Sending you much love in return.
Thank you for your share here.
Thank you for sharing. Paying attention and staying alert for the magic while remaining grounded in this physical experience is the key. Watch the signs. Don’t get caught up in the fear of unknown. When we feel squeezed, take that aggressive action being nudged our way. We are all in this together. 🙏🏻💕
Thank you for sharing! :)