I am so sorry, Ash and am sending you so much love as you navigate these very intricate waters. Thank you for your words about my writing. I appreciate them and you so much.
That’s such a beautiful share, I’m just smiling with you. I really needed your story and energy! My journey right now is taking a medical turn. I have a compression fracture in my lumbars. So I’m waiting on referrals and a procedure to cement it-😳 together.
I’ll think of all this beautiful California spring smells!!! I just adore the smell of spring!
The plains, where I am started spring weeks ago with flowering pear trees, and the bright purple flowering trees that I don’t know what they are. Soon, the nature reserve will have lots of baby Bison!!!! It is so amazing to see a herd of bison in the spring in the reserve. When I’m back together, I’ll go enjoy. I can’t believe you’re only there for 6 more weeks!! I’m grieving for you. I just want you to know how very sorry I am that the cost of living and other things have brought you to the decision of moving out of the lovely Ohai valley. But, of course, life brings many changes. I hope you’re remaining 3 weeks are magical and your transitioning goes smoothly 💕
The scent of orange blossoms, lemon blossoms, and jasmine as twilight falls is something I will not forget." that sure sounds like heaven's scent to me!
From the moment when you started talking about this move I've had one feeling. You will get the offer to stay on. Not something you can hang your hopes on and stick your head in the sand about dealing with what is. Because at the end of the day it's down to *do you wnat to stay, the way it is now?* Are you meant to move on, take your energy elsewhere? I know you've been taking about it for a few years now.
I'll put it like this, when we moved to Cancun from Isla, it was after the council had decided to promote it as "Party island". And I asked the island itself and was kinda startled to hear she wanted to try it out. I can always shake all the humans off if I don't like it. That was the moment I knew our futures would not be compatible - I'd want to hold onto what it used to be, and she was ready for something else. It made it easy to let go.
Are you, Jon, and the pack compatible with Ojai of the near future? Have you asked the area what it wants to explore next?
Thank you so much. Yes, this is such great info and we have been asking these questions. In fact, I was talking with a friend just yesterday about the changes here, what Ojai is now becoming, a wealthy community where one needs to either be wealthy or cater to the wealthy to live here.
I don't have solid answers at the moment and continue to act as if we are leaving while remaining open to whatever unfolds in the moment.
I was wondering if Ojai was going to hang on to you!
Who knows!!! Such a beautiful picture you paint of spring in Ojai.
I am doing the Ojai housing dance also. Looking for a place for my mom and I. Interesting journey. I asked an agent representing a house on creek rd if they would drop the price from 5500 to 3k . The owner said no but the agent was really nice about it and I could tell she was on our side. I’m Venus in Pisces too and I turn 53 in ten days. Riding the waves of change.
Wow, I can practically feel that puppy myself. The colors and smells and vibrancy are practically drippy in your words. What an amazing send-off you're getting. A perfect, beautiful way for Ojai to honor you and the relationship you've had with each other. It feels like a heartfelt goodbye gift from the land and the community. Acknowledgement and gratitude for the connection all these years. Parting on good terms and her giving you her blessing to leave.
In my world, I have had such good relationships and communities blossoming in ways I could never have imagined. I'm hanging out with my ex-boyfriend and his wife (who are fast becoming closer friends) almost twice a week now, I have a new romantic interest in my field, and I'm opening to the expansion and joy of non-monogamy vibes in ways that always felt terrifying for past me.
And, at the same time, all this new growth has really triggered underlying self-worth stuff. I can feel my brain trying THE MOST HARD to figure out why people want to hang out with me?!?! Like, I just don't get it. What do they get from this??? And there's a part of me that says joy and laughter and general good times are definitely not enough. Like that's nice, but there's gotta be something more. And of course I do have to be providing them with something, because what is worth without production?! I can see the part of me that also wants to figure out what they get, so that I can make sure to *always* provide it, and then they will never leave. Success, I figured out life, all done, mic drop.
But obviously that's not actually how it works. And I don't want to be manipulating people to control them because that's basically what I've been doing without fully realizing it. When I sit with just letting myself receive all the good feelings from these people, just receive their enjoyment of me, and try to open to that, the amount of terror in my chest is INSANE. It actually felt like I was hemorrhaging the other night. So that processing will be done in baby steps. And it feels like whatever these energies are that are up for me are simply the opening wave of whatever this larger eclipse cycle has in store for me. Into the magical portal we goooooo! (a la Ms. Frizzle and the Magic School Bus)
Mmm I can smell the scents and see the blossoms too! I love the puppy soft fur & sweat breath. Whatever happens next, the spring & the farmer’s market, friend & puppy connections all sound beautiful. Thank you for sharing it all!
As the tulips and grape hyacinths start emerging from the ground here, snow flurries are still fall from the sky today.
I started the day saying “I am enough “ - still in bed, and minutes into my work day - “ I hate everybody.” Idk - worthiness. That’s on today’s menu.
So much love to you as you move through these 6 weeks!!
Thanks Nora for such a wonderful article with beautiful descriptions that take me to where you are. Spring is such a magical time of the year. I absolutely love the first flowers poking up and the air. I actually have some crocus that I planted flowering. It is pretty early since the weather has been so weird but I look at them daily and hope the rabbits and squirrels don't eat them before I get to enjoy them. They tend to do that and dug up a whole row of my tulips before they even spouted last year.
The puppy sounds awesome too! They are soooo cute!
Once the weather warms up here I will feel better I think. I don't do well in cold and have always disliked the weather here with the long cold winters and short spring and fall. But I am working on enjoying what I can until I can move somewhere else. The flowers blooming help my mood perk up. Medical issues are up for me although I am trying to embrace them in a different way of acceptance and no more self blame for them. It has helped a lot with how I feel.
Overall I am just so happy that the weather is changing and that while it may be slow I know the world is changing for the better. I just have to remember it is a long slow change instead of the quick one I want. But I can work on myself and make sure I live with love in my heart and let that guide me.
Happy Spring!!! Love and lots of flowers to you Nora!
Ooo thank you for sharing this beautiful puppy story! I feel I really received a dose of puppy love and floral essence from this. I’ve started using essential oils to help soothe me at night and have been enjoying the combination of orange and rose geranium.
I’ve had a lot happening energetically and in my dreaming. Had a friendship suddenly come to an end, but it was hiding an unhealthy dynamic from their end and I think I just wasn’t a match to that anymore so I’m taking it as a positive. And really deep busy dreams that seem to be processing quite old stressful past experiences on a very deep level. Also had an altered state experience that I really think is past life related that I was hoping to ask you about this week, but we’ll see if I’m able to join your transmission. I’ll need my sleep that day but hoping my insomnia will have good timing 😂
I am so sorry, Ash and am sending you so much love as you navigate these very intricate waters. Thank you for your words about my writing. I appreciate them and you so much.
I send you love at this transition time for your mother.
Yes, holding you with much tenderness and grace during this deep life portal. May there be much beauty amidst the pain.
Your experiences feel very much like mine every time I have to come back from Liverpool. Sending virtual hugs.
Thank you, received.
That’s such a beautiful share, I’m just smiling with you. I really needed your story and energy! My journey right now is taking a medical turn. I have a compression fracture in my lumbars. So I’m waiting on referrals and a procedure to cement it-😳 together.
I’ll think of all this beautiful California spring smells!!! I just adore the smell of spring!
The plains, where I am started spring weeks ago with flowering pear trees, and the bright purple flowering trees that I don’t know what they are. Soon, the nature reserve will have lots of baby Bison!!!! It is so amazing to see a herd of bison in the spring in the reserve. When I’m back together, I’ll go enjoy. I can’t believe you’re only there for 6 more weeks!! I’m grieving for you. I just want you to know how very sorry I am that the cost of living and other things have brought you to the decision of moving out of the lovely Ohai valley. But, of course, life brings many changes. I hope you’re remaining 3 weeks are magical and your transitioning goes smoothly 💕
Thank you so much, Karen.
Baby bison! Wow!
Sending you so much love and energetic support as you heal.
Thank you so much
The scent of orange blossoms, lemon blossoms, and jasmine as twilight falls is something I will not forget." that sure sounds like heaven's scent to me!
From the moment when you started talking about this move I've had one feeling. You will get the offer to stay on. Not something you can hang your hopes on and stick your head in the sand about dealing with what is. Because at the end of the day it's down to *do you wnat to stay, the way it is now?* Are you meant to move on, take your energy elsewhere? I know you've been taking about it for a few years now.
I'll put it like this, when we moved to Cancun from Isla, it was after the council had decided to promote it as "Party island". And I asked the island itself and was kinda startled to hear she wanted to try it out. I can always shake all the humans off if I don't like it. That was the moment I knew our futures would not be compatible - I'd want to hold onto what it used to be, and she was ready for something else. It made it easy to let go.
Are you, Jon, and the pack compatible with Ojai of the near future? Have you asked the area what it wants to explore next?
Hugs
Thank you so much. Yes, this is such great info and we have been asking these questions. In fact, I was talking with a friend just yesterday about the changes here, what Ojai is now becoming, a wealthy community where one needs to either be wealthy or cater to the wealthy to live here.
I don't have solid answers at the moment and continue to act as if we are leaving while remaining open to whatever unfolds in the moment.
I was wondering if Ojai was going to hang on to you!
Who knows!!! Such a beautiful picture you paint of spring in Ojai.
I am doing the Ojai housing dance also. Looking for a place for my mom and I. Interesting journey. I asked an agent representing a house on creek rd if they would drop the price from 5500 to 3k . The owner said no but the agent was really nice about it and I could tell she was on our side. I’m Venus in Pisces too and I turn 53 in ten days. Riding the waves of change.
The only way Ojai could hold onto us is if housing for us were to magically appear.
Hoping you find something amazing and soon and happy birthday to you!
Wow, I can practically feel that puppy myself. The colors and smells and vibrancy are practically drippy in your words. What an amazing send-off you're getting. A perfect, beautiful way for Ojai to honor you and the relationship you've had with each other. It feels like a heartfelt goodbye gift from the land and the community. Acknowledgement and gratitude for the connection all these years. Parting on good terms and her giving you her blessing to leave.
In my world, I have had such good relationships and communities blossoming in ways I could never have imagined. I'm hanging out with my ex-boyfriend and his wife (who are fast becoming closer friends) almost twice a week now, I have a new romantic interest in my field, and I'm opening to the expansion and joy of non-monogamy vibes in ways that always felt terrifying for past me.
And, at the same time, all this new growth has really triggered underlying self-worth stuff. I can feel my brain trying THE MOST HARD to figure out why people want to hang out with me?!?! Like, I just don't get it. What do they get from this??? And there's a part of me that says joy and laughter and general good times are definitely not enough. Like that's nice, but there's gotta be something more. And of course I do have to be providing them with something, because what is worth without production?! I can see the part of me that also wants to figure out what they get, so that I can make sure to *always* provide it, and then they will never leave. Success, I figured out life, all done, mic drop.
But obviously that's not actually how it works. And I don't want to be manipulating people to control them because that's basically what I've been doing without fully realizing it. When I sit with just letting myself receive all the good feelings from these people, just receive their enjoyment of me, and try to open to that, the amount of terror in my chest is INSANE. It actually felt like I was hemorrhaging the other night. So that processing will be done in baby steps. And it feels like whatever these energies are that are up for me are simply the opening wave of whatever this larger eclipse cycle has in store for me. Into the magical portal we goooooo! (a la Ms. Frizzle and the Magic School Bus)
So beautifully expressed as always and can relate so much so.
Sending you big love
Mmm I can smell the scents and see the blossoms too! I love the puppy soft fur & sweat breath. Whatever happens next, the spring & the farmer’s market, friend & puppy connections all sound beautiful. Thank you for sharing it all!
As the tulips and grape hyacinths start emerging from the ground here, snow flurries are still fall from the sky today.
I started the day saying “I am enough “ - still in bed, and minutes into my work day - “ I hate everybody.” Idk - worthiness. That’s on today’s menu.
So much love to you as you move through these 6 weeks!!
So much love right back.
Snow and flowers, that's definitely the springtime I remember from decades past.
You are more than enough.
Yeah, I def can have my "I hate everybody" moments as well
Thank you for this post. I can viscerally experience your times... tastes, smells, the air, the puppy. Thank you!
You're welcome and thank you!
Thanks Nora for such a wonderful article with beautiful descriptions that take me to where you are. Spring is such a magical time of the year. I absolutely love the first flowers poking up and the air. I actually have some crocus that I planted flowering. It is pretty early since the weather has been so weird but I look at them daily and hope the rabbits and squirrels don't eat them before I get to enjoy them. They tend to do that and dug up a whole row of my tulips before they even spouted last year.
The puppy sounds awesome too! They are soooo cute!
Once the weather warms up here I will feel better I think. I don't do well in cold and have always disliked the weather here with the long cold winters and short spring and fall. But I am working on enjoying what I can until I can move somewhere else. The flowers blooming help my mood perk up. Medical issues are up for me although I am trying to embrace them in a different way of acceptance and no more self blame for them. It has helped a lot with how I feel.
Overall I am just so happy that the weather is changing and that while it may be slow I know the world is changing for the better. I just have to remember it is a long slow change instead of the quick one I want. But I can work on myself and make sure I live with love in my heart and let that guide me.
Happy Spring!!! Love and lots of flowers to you Nora!
Happy spring right back to you along with lots of love and flowers. Wishing you continued ease and healing.
Ooo thank you for sharing this beautiful puppy story! I feel I really received a dose of puppy love and floral essence from this. I’ve started using essential oils to help soothe me at night and have been enjoying the combination of orange and rose geranium.
I’ve had a lot happening energetically and in my dreaming. Had a friendship suddenly come to an end, but it was hiding an unhealthy dynamic from their end and I think I just wasn’t a match to that anymore so I’m taking it as a positive. And really deep busy dreams that seem to be processing quite old stressful past experiences on a very deep level. Also had an altered state experience that I really think is past life related that I was hoping to ask you about this week, but we’ll see if I’m able to join your transmission. I’ll need my sleep that day but hoping my insomnia will have good timing 😂
Happy Equinox! 🫶
So happy you received my puppy/floral transmission.
Here's to appropriate endings and transformation and a new phase.
The equinox is almost exact as I am typing this to you.
Sending you big love.
Thanks Nora! Big puppy love 💕 ☺️