Here We Go - Eclipses Incoming

Solar Eclipse Tomorrow, October 14th - Maximum at 9:24am Pacific

I am writing this on the eve of tomorrow’s eclipse having just woken from a midafternoon nap due to sudden and overwhelming exhaustion.

It happens every once in a while, this sudden onset of exhaustion that seems to hit me out of nowhere. I typically can tie the tiredness to either solar/celestial events and/or major world events. Often it’s both.

My heart is heavy with the suffering in Gaza and Israel right now. My heart is heavy as men in positions of patriarchal power rain death, destruction, disease, and loss down upon our most vulnerable.

I stand with those being abused, wherever they exist.

Personally, I am still recovering from being verbally attacked and assaulted at our city council meeting on Tuesday. For some reason today I am feeling the effects of it more. Perhaps it’s simply a delayed response due to survival mechanisms I put in place long ago that caused me to try to unhear/unfeel the violence constantly directed at me so I could get up, get dressed, and go to school.

Perhaps it’s the fact that the Police Chief stepped up to me instead of the abuser. She let me know afterward that she did not stop me due to what I was saying. She wanted me to be sure I knew this. She was just taking the shortest and fastest route to stop the conflict by going to me, the person at the mic. The optics, however, of her going to me instead of those who were abusing me, have done some damage as the perpetrators are claiming I was the one she was shutting down.

Victim blaming.

When I was a child and a teen I verbally fought back against my abuser. I was punished repeatedly for doing so. I was ostracized and isolated and not allowed to join in on any activities. They would go out to eat, to the movies, and go on other adventures, my mother, my stepfather, and my younger sister, and I would be left at home, alone, to fend for myself. I was eleven when this began. My crime - speaking out about the constant verbal, emotional, and psychological abuse and torture.

When I was twelve years old they headed off to Florida and Disney World for 10 days and I was dumped at my father’s. He had to go out of town a day before they returned so I was transferred to a friend of my mother’s. A call came in from them that night. They were extending their trip by one more day.

“It’s not fair!” I screamed at her as she broke the news to a sobbing me.

“You’re right. It’s not,” she said.

That is the only moment from those ten days I can recall, her affirmation that what was happening was wrong.

It would be four more years before I would finally leave my home, forcing my mother’s hand. It was him or me.

Solar eclipses often bring with them sudden reversals or changes. These events can be experienced as positive or negative. I checked, and there were no eclipses in late October/early November of 1983, which is when he and I had our final, epic battle, but there was a total solar eclipse in the summer of 1983 which set the stage for this power reversal. It was at that point that he seemed to completely lose his mind and everyone in the home became his victims. By the solar and lunar eclipses in December of 1983, he was completely moved out after trying to manipulate us all into taking him in again.

We typically experience two sets of eclipses annually. The first pair this year was in the spring. Tomorrow’s eclipse will be an annular eclipse (ring of light around the sun) and the one on Saturday, October 28th will be a partial lunar eclipse.

The next two weeks may bring back to you both issues that came up during the spring eclipses from this year and things that were brought forth during the start of this eclipse cycle back on November 19th, 2021, an eclipse cycle that will end with the Lunar eclipse on October 28th.

Sudden shifts may happen.

Welcome and embrace the good.

Grieve what needs grieving.

Be as flexible as you can be.

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