While sitting in our living room with the dogs watching The Bear the other night I suddenly had the strongest sense that I had been in this moment before. It was more than a déjà vu, it was the memory of a dream I had a couple of years before, one I had forgotten until I found myself in the waking reality of it.
I’d been dreaming on and off about being in Chicago for the past two years. I thought I was having the dreams due to watching The Bear which premiered in June of 2022. For the first time since leaving in 2004, I started to feel nostalgic about Chicago.
The dreams increased.
“Of course I am dreaming about it, I’ve got Chicago etched on my brain,” I said to myself after powering through season two of The Bear in the summer of 2023 and then binging Shameless through the early fall, not so much for the show but the setting. Let me tell you, watching 134 episodes of a show you don’t love just to put yourself somewhere is a weird move, yet it’s one I committed to.
Not long after that Chicago became more than a nostalgic memory, it became a distinct possibility.
And here I am, experiencing many of my dream moments in waking reality, some remembered (like driving and then wandering through Logan Square which happened a couple of weeks ago) and some, like the one mentioned above, only rising to the surface of my consciousness as the moment plays out.
Which is it, did my nostalgia for it create our move here or did I start dreaming about it as a precognitive experience? I don’t think it’s an “either/or” but a “yes and…..”. It’s both a dream and a psychic intuit, each weaving into the other and building into something that continues to grow and evolve.
Neptune will move retrograde tomorrow, July 2nd, in its home sign of Pisces. Saturn turned retrograde in Pisces on Saturday, and Pluto continues its retrograde journey through Aquarius, a turn it made on May 2nd.
Dreams, internal reflections, our paths, identities, and all that have made us who we are are highlighted right now. I am going to be paying even more attention to my dreams as a marker for what is possible as well as a realm for creation. We play in the dream state in ways we can not when fully awake and yet that play seeps into our waking minds opening doors we thought were closed or ones we did not even know existed.
Discernment is the mental/emotional work in the light of day, and I certainly don’t always get these things right. Just yesterday morning I pulled a tarot card on whether or not to check out a different coffee roaster than the one I have been buying from (a reading on something like this is often very accurate since I have zero attachments to the answer received).
I got the Five of Wands (meaning some kind of conflict), which seemed strange as this roaster gets excellent reviews online and their beans are readily available at the cafe a block from the Roger’s Park Sunday Farmers’ Market I was about to head off to.
“Okay, fine,” I have learned the hard way when using my deck for this purpose not to fuck with the answers I get, even when they do not make sense. Turns out there was no Farmers’ Market this Sunday, there was an annual Pride Event in the same location instead.
Ah, I see. This is the conflict I was trying to tell myself about via the use of my deck. This is sometimes how divination works. I ask a question about something and receive an answer about something else. Working with the tarot is as layered as dreaming our realities into being is.
I dreamed the other night that someone was asking me how the channeling class I had not yet even scheduled went. “What is she talking about?” my dream-self thought. I suddenly remotely viewed it (ie: moved into the future moment at the end of the class), saw the many people attending and their experience of it, and reported that it was going to be/had been a great success. The person asking me about it knew the class had already happened and the me in the dream knew nothing about it. She and I seemed to be on completely different timelines. (Looks like I’ll be scheduling some channeling classes. Stay tuned.)
Pisces is a mutable sign. With Saturn and Neptune both retrograde there, being flexible and open to changing timelines will be key. Reality may feel more dreamlike for the next few months, and while this can open up amazing potentials it also can be easy to float away. Being grounded and taking focused actions as much as possible will be of benefit along with self-care, time in the water, and working with the water in our bodies, the biggest physical conduit of love we have.
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I seriously felt like I awoke in a different timeline last week. I feel the shifting timelines - back and forth. It’s unsettling for sure but I am keeping the Equanimity focus in front of mind to stay grounded. I appreciate you!
I picked up my keyring last week to unlock the front door, it hangs on the back of the fan. On the keyring I found a camping can opener that wasn't there before. It wasn't new, it looks well worn. I asked M about it, but he shook his head. Must be a timeline jump, I said.
Here we're prepping for the first hurricane of the season on the Atlantic side, and my head feel like it's got a cleaver in it. Ugh. The final rehersal before the season that is forecast to be intense kicks in.