How are you?
Dang!
The last couple of months have really been something, bringing to my life and attention so much good and then some of my biggest worries and fears. I’ve had to force myself at times to continue to revel in the good and not let the fear take me down without bypassing anything that needed to be felt and dealt with.
I gotta say, I think I have done pretty well. The fight meter in our home barely registered a three. A few years ago, we would probably have been at a ten.
When my anxiety gets high, I start yelling. Jon’ll jump right in if triggered. Vice versa is true as well. I once made him leave the house prior to installing a new modem for our cable internet. We’ve learned the tough way that we can not do most technological things together without a battle. I’ll tell you all about the Great Remote Control Fight of 2002 some other time.
He did have to fix a hard drive issue on my computer. Again. And there was barely a tiff. I guess we’re growing. Not tempting fate here, however, so it may have been a one-off, and I don’t need any more opportunities soon to put this to the test, thank you very much to whoever is listening and runs this dumb show. I know, it’s all of us collectively, but sometimes I still like to pretend there is some ultimate power in charge, gives me someone/thing to blame. And, of course, I don’t really know, because there are things that are unknowable to us at this moment from our perspective, so just on the off chance that I am wrong and there is some ultimate power, I am not in the mood for any tests at the moment, and could you hurry on up and give us all a bit or a lot more help here?
I am going to spend the week cleaning up and clearing out in preparation for the lovely balancing energies of the Equinox.
We have our annual Equinox event on Thursday on Zoom.
We’ll also be having a Reiki Share on Saturday on Zoom for anyone attuned to Reiki I and above.
Details for both are here on my site
How are you today as we start to move into the regularity of both Venus and Mercury direct? Please leave me a comment and let me know.
Is Mercury direct? My co-worker and I are reviewing the most ridiculous things in our grant. I have little energy for fine-tuning and, at this point, it's all fine-tuning. Sometimes I can rally and sometimes the brain-fog is like pea soup. Meanwhile, my body is doing her thing as if we haven't communicated about schedules & priorities. Aaah, well, I guess I'm demonstrating how she might feel a little out of sorts. On the plus side, we had such a great time watching Celia's marching band on Saturday, followed by a truly wonderful/moving concert experience that evening.
The transition to Monday is challenging . . . I've gotta work on flow all around and a less fractured existence. It does feel like things have been heavy overall lately. Lots of flooding here last weekend (moreso worldwide!) and work and family. All has added up to personal care taking a back seat (who puts themselves last?! . . . who says martyrdom is the way to go?! WTF!). This week should be the final push for the grant. My intention is to stay in the moment and factor myself/my body into the moment and do what I can to stay balanced and moving/breathing forward.
Cleaning up & clearing out sounds good. Blaming . . . yep, got that too. It takes lots of different forms, but definitely got it.
I'm so excited you're doing an Equinox event! Looking forward to it.
I am responding from the inside of a plane just before takeoff. My parents and I are headed for two weeks in Croatia, ending in Venice. I’m very excited and a bit apprehensive - we haven’t done a family trip since I was little. Doing my best to stay grounded, flow as much as possible, take things in stride, process emotions as they come up, and also focus on all the good right now.
I’m approaching this as a true journey and my intention is to grow in my capacity for ease, play, and vulnerable joy while with them. And to embody even more of my authentic adult self in how I show up in the world. Sending you all love 💕