Monday Morning/Weekly Post Solar Eclipse Check-In Thread
How are you?
How many naps are too many naps?
I am tired, friends.
We live on such a beautiful planet. The useless and ongoing suffering is really getting to me.
I can not take any platitudes or spiritual ideas that embrace the need for suffering, that tell us what does not kill us makes us stronger, or that we are somehow responsible for our own suffering.
We’ve been stuck in a loop of suffering here for thousands of years or more.
If I go back to my memories of lives on other worlds, it’s been much, much longer than that.
Alleviation of suffering, healing, giving support, and operating from joy are all that I wish to pursue at the moment. Sometimes alleviating suffering requires the airing out and sharing of old wounds. Sometimes it requires telling a room full of detractors to shut the fuck up.
We completed another round of channeling classes on Saturday. Observing the evolution of those attending, holding the door open for them so they could go farther than they thought they could just one moment before, and witnessing them feel the unconditional love brings me unlimited joy.
As did sharing a meal with friends last night and then bringing them home to meet the pack, another source of unconditional love.
So, I am tired and sad about the horrors of the world and yet feeling the love and joy at the same time.
How are you? Leave me a comment below and let me know.
I'm tired too. Tired of people being ugly to eachother and hating on faceless people they've never met.
I try not to let myself being sucked down the hole of being angry (on behalf of other people), and dropping what precious little energy I have. It helps no one if I'm here in my office seething over an injustice somewhere in the world where I know no one.
Yet at the same time I am painfully aware of what's going on in a visceral, wordless way, coz I can feel it even when I don't know the ins and outs of the details.
Last week came with four migraines. Last night, as the temperature dropped below 30c, I stayed up writing til gone midnight. Paying for it today, but it was worth it. For a short time the outside world stopped existing, and I felt almost like my old self again. And I loved every moment of it.
I've been home on the East Coast visiting family and reconnecting. It's been nice. I'd like to add a place marker here that I'd like to join in on your channeling classes when I'm able to do that. In the meantime I'll try to restart my journaling.
-Nathaniel