I keep trying to finish one of the many pieces I have begun that are sitting in my drafts folder gathering dust, and as I read each one I think to myself, “This piece is dumb” or “Who cares?” or “My writing sucks” or some other horrible thing about myself.
Yessss to all the tricks to catching ourselves doing them, to imposter syndrome, to overwhelm and showing up anyway. Add a sprinkling of brain fog and a terror flashes of cherry on top and boom!! It's October. Love you 🙌🏽🌟💛
I relate to what you just shared so much. Thank you for the vulnerability. I was just on my way home feeling like I too was back in a place I thought I had recovered from. Like you, words that just pierced me and sent me in a tailspin. I know it’s here to be seen, to be felt. I know it’s ultimately for my greater good, but it sucks sitting in it. I know it won’t last. I know I’ll come out better, but none of that mutes the pain or quite stops the survival patterns that have re-emerged. Anyways, sometimes it’s just so very nice to know you aren’t alone. Someone else is out there feeling a little bit crazy, getting sucked into the ridiculous lies, knowing better but wishing at this moment that your body actually felt like it “knows better.” Your bravery to share helped me stand a little taller today. ❤️
I’m glad you wrote anyway. As someone who is herolding the way 😉, showing these shadow aspects of pain and struggle is equally important. It reflects back the inner struggle we all have inside us. So thank you and keep on keeping on!
Thanks for sharing about this Nora. I've been going through a heavy procrastination period over the last month or so. I keep beating myself up for it. I don't fully understand it. That voice that basically just wants me to be productive and push through is trying to help, but also can be a total ass! Solidarity to all of us who are finding the creative process isn't flowing so well at this current moment.
For what it’s worth, these kinds of posts are some of my favorite. I have “permission to flail” as a quote on my desk. Something I’m always practicing and giving myself more and more permission to do, especially visibly, especially in public. I commend you. Thank you for flailing around with us. I love your human 😘
And do you know how beautifully you put words down, how your descriptions are simple and invoke a clear picture of what's happening on many levels? Thank you for writing and being authentic in your struggle and joy and creative path.
Yessss to all the tricks to catching ourselves doing them, to imposter syndrome, to overwhelm and showing up anyway. Add a sprinkling of brain fog and a terror flashes of cherry on top and boom!! It's October. Love you 🙌🏽🌟💛
I love you too :)
I relate to what you just shared so much. Thank you for the vulnerability. I was just on my way home feeling like I too was back in a place I thought I had recovered from. Like you, words that just pierced me and sent me in a tailspin. I know it’s here to be seen, to be felt. I know it’s ultimately for my greater good, but it sucks sitting in it. I know it won’t last. I know I’ll come out better, but none of that mutes the pain or quite stops the survival patterns that have re-emerged. Anyways, sometimes it’s just so very nice to know you aren’t alone. Someone else is out there feeling a little bit crazy, getting sucked into the ridiculous lies, knowing better but wishing at this moment that your body actually felt like it “knows better.” Your bravery to share helped me stand a little taller today. ❤️
Thank you so much for your beautiful share and words here, Angela. Sending you much love.
Well said Angela, I agree wholeheartedly
I’m glad you wrote anyway. As someone who is herolding the way 😉, showing these shadow aspects of pain and struggle is equally important. It reflects back the inner struggle we all have inside us. So thank you and keep on keeping on!
Thank you so much, Kyra. I love you.
Thanks for sharing about this Nora. I've been going through a heavy procrastination period over the last month or so. I keep beating myself up for it. I don't fully understand it. That voice that basically just wants me to be productive and push through is trying to help, but also can be a total ass! Solidarity to all of us who are finding the creative process isn't flowing so well at this current moment.
Thank you for sharing, Antonia. Sending you love.
You are always just so real! I appreciate you for sharing. 🧡
Thank you so much, Mary. Sending you love.
For what it’s worth, these kinds of posts are some of my favorite. I have “permission to flail” as a quote on my desk. Something I’m always practicing and giving myself more and more permission to do, especially visibly, especially in public. I commend you. Thank you for flailing around with us. I love your human 😘
Thank you so much, Helen. And it's worth a lot, your feedback. I love you.
Sounds so very Scorpio Moon. : )
Ha! Yes :)
And do you know how beautifully you put words down, how your descriptions are simple and invoke a clear picture of what's happening on many levels? Thank you for writing and being authentic in your struggle and joy and creative path.
I love you.
Thank you so much, Susan