Girl! This story triggered the situation that haven’t been addressed in decades!!! Whoa! I cried so much and held the space for myself and that version of myself, like you always teach us!!! Thank you for that gift 🩵
I can't imagine what writing these is like... reliving the trauma and the feelings etc. I hope it is a positive experience for you, cathartic, at the very least.
Nora, I'm so sorry you went through all of this, and I'm in awe of the empowered and compassionate person you have become.
It's interesting to me that I should read this just a few hours after a deeply triggering phone conversation with my mother. She was not physically abusive, but the psychological scars are deep.
I always thought she was a Trump supporter because she must not realize how truly awful he is. Tonight we talked about how the Republican party goes against all the values she taught me as a child, how his party wants to force incest victims like me to carry their rapist's babies, how scholars and historians are sounding the alarm about the potential end of democracy, how his plans for mass deportations echo the actions of Hitler, and more. All of this came up because my son's top surgery has been delayed and he's distraught with worry about what may happen to him if Trump wins. She didn't disagree with any of it, though she did call me unreasonable. After listening to both myself and my son about how a second Trump term would directly harm both of us, she simply said "I know all of that. I'm going to vote for him anyway because of the economy." She then went on a rant about how Obama has been running the county from the shadows and Kamala is too brainless to be anything but his puppet, which told me her choice was really about racism and misogyny. I hung up the phone and sobbed. I was physically ill. She called to reassure my son about the delay in his surgery, but she's fully planning to vote for someone who wants to make that surgery illegal, even for adults like my son.
I finally realize that she has no integrity. I so desperately wanted her to be better than this, and I finally realize that she really, really isn't. I realized tonight that I can't save her, or help her be better because she knows exactly who she is and she is choosing to be that person, while being fully aware of the harmful impact her choices might have on other people, including her own daughter and grandson.
This is a very old karmic dance she and I have been doing for many lifetimes, and it ends now. The eclipse is still two weeks away but I'm already in the deep end of karmic transformation. It's painful in a way I can't articulate, but I also feel like I'm catching the first scent of clean air and...freedom.
May all beings rise above the abuse they have experienced and find freedom. And Joy. LOTS of joy.
This hit hard as I’ve had the same experience except it was psychological and emotional abuse from my entire family my entire life. I also contemplated suicide multiple times. I’m so so sorry that you had to experience this and I’m so glad you’re still here. Sending so much love 🖤
Thank you for this Nora. You are a gift and I am so glad you are still here and have this beautiful tool of writing and sharing to help you process all you went through. I'm sending so much love to little you who had to deal with things way beyond her capacity.
For myself, it was actually really nice to have the mirroring of how not triggering this was for me. There were many years where reading a story like this would bring up all my own struggles with my own mother, my own hopelessness and powerlessness and despair and aloneness. Gratefully, I'm realizing that it didn't this time. I'm seeing how much I have already processed and how far I've come and that makes me really happy. So thank you for being part of that for me too.
Oh Nora, I am so sorry you went through that nightmare! I send you love!
Thank you, Susan. Love received.
This is very difficult to read, it goes directly home.
I love you, big hugs!
Thank you, Max.
I love you too
Big hugs right back
Girl! This story triggered the situation that haven’t been addressed in decades!!! Whoa! I cried so much and held the space for myself and that version of myself, like you always teach us!!! Thank you for that gift 🩵
I am so sorry for what you went through, Anya. Sending you my love and appreciate.
Thank you for sharing this Nora. I’m sorry you had to experience this. I’m sending you and the little versions of Nora so much love and big hugs💫
Thank you so much, Vasundhara. Love and hugs received.
I can't imagine what writing these is like... reliving the trauma and the feelings etc. I hope it is a positive experience for you, cathartic, at the very least.
Thank you, Teri.
I am finding it very healing to write and to share.
I also am intending that my sharing help others who can relate, so it all feels like all of my work does, service oriented.
I am so happy you are here and that the voice was enough for you to hear. 💚
Thank you so much
Nora, I'm so sorry you went through all of this, and I'm in awe of the empowered and compassionate person you have become.
It's interesting to me that I should read this just a few hours after a deeply triggering phone conversation with my mother. She was not physically abusive, but the psychological scars are deep.
I always thought she was a Trump supporter because she must not realize how truly awful he is. Tonight we talked about how the Republican party goes against all the values she taught me as a child, how his party wants to force incest victims like me to carry their rapist's babies, how scholars and historians are sounding the alarm about the potential end of democracy, how his plans for mass deportations echo the actions of Hitler, and more. All of this came up because my son's top surgery has been delayed and he's distraught with worry about what may happen to him if Trump wins. She didn't disagree with any of it, though she did call me unreasonable. After listening to both myself and my son about how a second Trump term would directly harm both of us, she simply said "I know all of that. I'm going to vote for him anyway because of the economy." She then went on a rant about how Obama has been running the county from the shadows and Kamala is too brainless to be anything but his puppet, which told me her choice was really about racism and misogyny. I hung up the phone and sobbed. I was physically ill. She called to reassure my son about the delay in his surgery, but she's fully planning to vote for someone who wants to make that surgery illegal, even for adults like my son.
I finally realize that she has no integrity. I so desperately wanted her to be better than this, and I finally realize that she really, really isn't. I realized tonight that I can't save her, or help her be better because she knows exactly who she is and she is choosing to be that person, while being fully aware of the harmful impact her choices might have on other people, including her own daughter and grandson.
This is a very old karmic dance she and I have been doing for many lifetimes, and it ends now. The eclipse is still two weeks away but I'm already in the deep end of karmic transformation. It's painful in a way I can't articulate, but I also feel like I'm catching the first scent of clean air and...freedom.
May all beings rise above the abuse they have experienced and find freedom. And Joy. LOTS of joy.
Thank you, Amy Beth.
I am so sorry for your experience as well.
Sending you my love.
This hit hard as I’ve had the same experience except it was psychological and emotional abuse from my entire family my entire life. I also contemplated suicide multiple times. I’m so so sorry that you had to experience this and I’m so glad you’re still here. Sending so much love 🖤
I am so sorry you've had to experience what you have and I am so glad you're still here as well. Sending you so much love in return.
Thank you so much. I really appreciate that 🖤
Thank you for this Nora. You are a gift and I am so glad you are still here and have this beautiful tool of writing and sharing to help you process all you went through. I'm sending so much love to little you who had to deal with things way beyond her capacity.
For myself, it was actually really nice to have the mirroring of how not triggering this was for me. There were many years where reading a story like this would bring up all my own struggles with my own mother, my own hopelessness and powerlessness and despair and aloneness. Gratefully, I'm realizing that it didn't this time. I'm seeing how much I have already processed and how far I've come and that makes me really happy. So thank you for being part of that for me too.
Thank you, Helen.
Love received.
Thank you for sharing that piece about your response to this as well. Gold!
I have read all your work on Substack, but I’m going to have to wait to check this one out. Lots of love
Thank you, Karen. Love right back