"I so appreciate your vulnerability Nora. One of the things I love about you and follow you for is your raw vulnerability, cursing, and no BS style! You said it perfectly yourself by, “finding the dysfunction within these spaces and calling it out while also dealing with my insecurities and wounds.”
I have often wanted to be a public voice in some form through writing, workshops or teaching and I can’t seem to get myself to do any of it. I really hate the public eye sometimes (my Leo sun is very negatively opposed in my chart), and I still fear ostracism which I experienced a lot of in my teens and early twenties. The other insecurity I hang my hat on is despising the dysfunction in new age spaces and not wanting to be swimming in it.
You have the courage to put yourself out there. I deconstruct it before I even get there! For now I gently remind myself that I am helping people through all the work I love to do as a therapist and it’s ok if it’s a quieter form but my Leo self has much different feelings about that. I so desire to lead and speak but can’t quite find it in me to do it. Anyway, so thank you for modeling a perfectly imperfect version for others." - Kyra
I have had that happen as well, and since then, I only make comments using my laptop. Somehow, the mobile phone has caused me to delete my comment or hit send, or not hit send.
I love how you even include us in the process of your dysfunction or insecurities in the lead up to posting the scary thing, which feels like we get to come along for the ride with you. That's something I've been telling myself for ages... to include people in the process along the way, sharing as you go, instead of just sharing the "arrived at outcome" so to speak. And it's something I majorly struggle with in my own visibility journey.
I started my own substack a few months back with the intention of building an audience for my business, but something about that feels too contrived. I just want to write and post and the truth is, I don't want to do it for other people. Sure, I'm glad if it helps people, but I think more than anything I actually want to be seen. And all the stupid programming around you have to offer something to others and be of service and focus on your audience has actually gotten in the way. Like, no, I actually don't want that. I want to be seen and I want to share my voice and my thoughts and not make it about what may or may not serve others. I actually want to center myself and that's allowed and okay and of course that will still help other people in the process. And, even if it doesn't, it's still okay. It being about and for me and whatever I want it to be is enough. Disentangling the people pleasing seems to be a life-long journey too.
In my world, I just had my 33rd birthday on July 4th (a much more fun thing to celebrate than the US holiday). I'm excited for the magic number year ahead! 22 was a major year for me in my life, and, thinking back, 11 actually was too, so I have delightful anticipation for whatever the future holds!
I've been getting better and better, feeling myself back again. Until today I was giving reiki to my client and as I went for the final check, as I had been working on her shoulders and arms as she asked me to, and I felt nothing. I panicked for a second, thinking I was not working. Again! Back at it!!!!!! Then it hit me: it's her, she's so taken in her suffering and problems she had lately as she was found unconscious nearly dead, that she's not present in her body.
This sums it pretty much well. Back, but still building up confidence, but I also feel new information and things coming up. I am also exploring more my connection with myself. Last night I left the body and went for a journey out there in creation and I asked: let me go visit the real me, the whole of me. When I got to me, it was very crowded with light, stars (beings)... afterwards I thought why? Why did I ask to go see the ME. Well we all are longing to go home, where it's safe, aren't we. And I did know how to go there. I know, I didn't really travel there, I am there. But the journey, though not real, was necessary for the human experiencing it. But also this is me reminding myself of the direct access I have to myself. I am on a express line communicating to myself constantly, so much so that I thought everyone must be able to. Yes, but they are not doing it. Now that I understand it though, I need to understand it and work with it.
I have come to term with the fact that we're ahead of our time, that we're introducing new concepts and understanding in the collective, that will be standard in the future. That is a very uncomfortable position to be in: you're looked as a idiot crazy lunatic.
But for me those concepts are so evident that I really can't understand why so few are getting them.
So where does this leave me. I don't know. I still have to figure it out.
Thanks for sharing as usual! Your willingness to write and continue to explore all the dimensions of being human and beyond human, inspires me.
As you know I’ve always felt a connection of shared journey. I appreciate your courage and candor so much. Also naming what I’ve experienced too. Getting into new age spaces and then realizing the great dysfunction.
I’ve done that in the mainstream too. Trying to fit in, had to have my advanced degrees to really embrace my wisdom. Marriage, family, etc. playing the roles.
How am I this Monday? So free to be me. I’m still mom of five and grandma to 7. And I receive my guidance from many sources! Within- and in other dimensions! But unlike where I come from, I am not beholden to my roles. I am not enslaved to the dysfunctional structures I’ve escaped.
I’ve just spent a lovely time with two of my kids and their families in the Mountains and there is nothing like being me with them and cultivating real relating. We’ve seen our share of sorrow and pain and to be together in this way is the best! I am continuously holding ground in my healing journey. I so appreciate you and look forward to supporting you in whatever you will be sharing soon!
Coming back from almost dying—wait, did that really happen?—has gifted me a brand new motto: build back better. Be more embodied. Have less body (aka: lose some weight). Build up core strength. And maybe even get to the core of something, for once.
I think I’m finally on the other side of recovery mode. I’m writing and painting every day like someone who’s seen a DEADline—and lived to tell the tale. But now I’m not writing for the deadline… I’m writing for the aliveness of it. Like a love letter to the inner wise one who’s been waiting patiently while I spiraled, detoured, and got distracted by snacks. A love letter to the quiet wisdom within, the part of me that’s been whispering truths through all the noise.
I seem to have entered a phase where I’m choosing to wake up, tell the truth, and remember who I am—who we are.
I have no idea why it took me this long to get this excited about being here, and being me. And I realize now I was right on time all along.
This is such an important issue. I think grounded "spirituality" or embodied spirituality is key. I don't even like the term spirituality anymore because it reeks of separation. I have told myself for the last 4 years, my only job is to live the most intuitively led life I can. That is my agenda. No chasing processes. So wow please send our what you are thinking. There is probably a huge audience for it. I go through periods when I am embedded in the new thought world , and times when it I see all the toxicity around it in lots of ways.
When I started my channeling experience, all it was about was answering one question: Are we alone in the universe? While I answered that question, I also learned what it was to be a channel. I took a five year course and squeezed it into one year. It was dangerous, and I don't recommend it. Take the five year course, and learn these concepts one at a time is my advice now. Now, just over one year later, I'm writing about my experience with joy, awe, fear, and doubts. I remember what my guide, Linda, always tells me. She says, "Just write, Jose'. Don't concern yourself about the future. Because whatever you can imagine is only one possibility in an infinite number of possibilities. Just write. Write in the now because there is only now." This one thought has guided me through the most difficult obstacles I have ever faced, in my writing and in other areas of my life. Oh, I would buy and study your book. In a heartbeat, I would buy that book. Because, if for no other reason, I could ask my guides the same questions you have already asked. Confirmation on an idea is really important to me. I hope this note is helpful. I'm listening to "More Than a Feeling" by Boston. They were a great group with a message about going to the stars, a journey many of us will be taking in the future.
Post script: I'm becoming a better journalist. Thank you for being patient with me. I promise to give credit where credit is due at the proper time. Thank you for being one of several people who inspired my journal.
I too appreciate the authenticity you bring to all of your work, including your writing. Your honesty, even when it's messy or unpopular or unresolved, is one of the things that kept bringing me back when I first encountered your work. Coming from a church background and other systems that really want people to simply go along without questioning, the calling out of inconsistencies or greed or anything else that is disingenuous within a system . . . well, it is simply real. More than that, it is respectful to all of us who share in the same circles, and, in my opinion, points to a degree of authenticity and transparency that is much needed.
I struggle with sharing who I am, my insecurities, the messy middle of things, processes . . . life! I tell myself that some of it is due to the fear of hurting others in my life, but that's only a part, and maybe a small part at that. At the same time I so long to be seen and known and accepted. What others have said here resonates with me too . . . not wanting to be ostracized and also wanting my voice to be heard.
Life here feels like . . . . well, it feels like mid-summer. It's hot and a bit murky. Read that as inflamed and nebulous, with a side of obfuscation. Also - there is beauty in mid-summer. I love the smells of flowers and other plant life and the bird-songs and sigtings (saw a bald eagle & a heron last night). Thank you for including the flower picture! Yes - we can all use some more beauty!
Anne, would you share the title along with the link, please?
Thank you
The Loving Parent Guidebook
https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Parent-Guidebook-Solution-Become-ebook/dp/B09D9VLVVH/ref=sr_1_1?crid=2OC4KSSD44R1G&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.yqDfk8oDvFnqypE5mmTACfVUPyU4KRG3JH_2cMtZXgJ14FSpMS9rH-wq6b4xrBVA-S2tq2qUQJ83pNzScZZeLYLjRM1v9eUCsrZaoXvcIS2fTKZ8CDZo-D8rODGE4N2ocCXMQuVYvAjCh0JbHE7Wn64ucjupt2Xy-iqmj_bGnMDJ0YQeLAoHoOAHCB9halfL4Lt3BKXx9BsK2oVFXe8gdM8jSu8neWM33jpGyL9rTJ8.RFgovq9feo13nCGQolKArH1jhmn-M4QRDxXHocLEYRE&dib_tag=se&keywords=the+loving+parent+guidebook&qid=1752510443&sprefix=The+Loving+Parent+Guidebook%2Caps%2C271&sr=8-1
Damn it! I just left you a long comment and I’m not sure where I posted it too! If you find it lmk. 😂
hahahaha
Gaaaaah!
Mercury. I bet it's in my notes.
Checking now
Found it!
"I so appreciate your vulnerability Nora. One of the things I love about you and follow you for is your raw vulnerability, cursing, and no BS style! You said it perfectly yourself by, “finding the dysfunction within these spaces and calling it out while also dealing with my insecurities and wounds.”
I have often wanted to be a public voice in some form through writing, workshops or teaching and I can’t seem to get myself to do any of it. I really hate the public eye sometimes (my Leo sun is very negatively opposed in my chart), and I still fear ostracism which I experienced a lot of in my teens and early twenties. The other insecurity I hang my hat on is despising the dysfunction in new age spaces and not wanting to be swimming in it.
You have the courage to put yourself out there. I deconstruct it before I even get there! For now I gently remind myself that I am helping people through all the work I love to do as a therapist and it’s ok if it’s a quieter form but my Leo self has much different feelings about that. I so desire to lead and speak but can’t quite find it in me to do it. Anyway, so thank you for modeling a perfectly imperfect version for others." - Kyra
Thank you so much, beautiful being.
Yay! Thank you for reposting! 💖 Always Nora! I have different experiences but similar childhood wounds and I so appreciate authenticity!
I have had that happen as well, and since then, I only make comments using my laptop. Somehow, the mobile phone has caused me to delete my comment or hit send, or not hit send.
I love how you even include us in the process of your dysfunction or insecurities in the lead up to posting the scary thing, which feels like we get to come along for the ride with you. That's something I've been telling myself for ages... to include people in the process along the way, sharing as you go, instead of just sharing the "arrived at outcome" so to speak. And it's something I majorly struggle with in my own visibility journey.
I started my own substack a few months back with the intention of building an audience for my business, but something about that feels too contrived. I just want to write and post and the truth is, I don't want to do it for other people. Sure, I'm glad if it helps people, but I think more than anything I actually want to be seen. And all the stupid programming around you have to offer something to others and be of service and focus on your audience has actually gotten in the way. Like, no, I actually don't want that. I want to be seen and I want to share my voice and my thoughts and not make it about what may or may not serve others. I actually want to center myself and that's allowed and okay and of course that will still help other people in the process. And, even if it doesn't, it's still okay. It being about and for me and whatever I want it to be is enough. Disentangling the people pleasing seems to be a life-long journey too.
In my world, I just had my 33rd birthday on July 4th (a much more fun thing to celebrate than the US holiday). I'm excited for the magic number year ahead! 22 was a major year for me in my life, and, thinking back, 11 actually was too, so I have delightful anticipation for whatever the future holds!
Happy birthday to you!!!
33 is indeed a wonderful and magical marker.
Huh, interesting thoughts about "being of service" and how that feels confining to you. Thank you for sharing.
I've been getting better and better, feeling myself back again. Until today I was giving reiki to my client and as I went for the final check, as I had been working on her shoulders and arms as she asked me to, and I felt nothing. I panicked for a second, thinking I was not working. Again! Back at it!!!!!! Then it hit me: it's her, she's so taken in her suffering and problems she had lately as she was found unconscious nearly dead, that she's not present in her body.
This sums it pretty much well. Back, but still building up confidence, but I also feel new information and things coming up. I am also exploring more my connection with myself. Last night I left the body and went for a journey out there in creation and I asked: let me go visit the real me, the whole of me. When I got to me, it was very crowded with light, stars (beings)... afterwards I thought why? Why did I ask to go see the ME. Well we all are longing to go home, where it's safe, aren't we. And I did know how to go there. I know, I didn't really travel there, I am there. But the journey, though not real, was necessary for the human experiencing it. But also this is me reminding myself of the direct access I have to myself. I am on a express line communicating to myself constantly, so much so that I thought everyone must be able to. Yes, but they are not doing it. Now that I understand it though, I need to understand it and work with it.
I have come to term with the fact that we're ahead of our time, that we're introducing new concepts and understanding in the collective, that will be standard in the future. That is a very uncomfortable position to be in: you're looked as a idiot crazy lunatic.
But for me those concepts are so evident that I really can't understand why so few are getting them.
So where does this leave me. I don't know. I still have to figure it out.
Thank you for sharing, Max.
Hugs
It’s like ( I’m speaking for myself) the whole world, or the USA is my home improvement project!
hahahaha
Hi Nora,
Thanks for sharing as usual! Your willingness to write and continue to explore all the dimensions of being human and beyond human, inspires me.
As you know I’ve always felt a connection of shared journey. I appreciate your courage and candor so much. Also naming what I’ve experienced too. Getting into new age spaces and then realizing the great dysfunction.
I’ve done that in the mainstream too. Trying to fit in, had to have my advanced degrees to really embrace my wisdom. Marriage, family, etc. playing the roles.
How am I this Monday? So free to be me. I’m still mom of five and grandma to 7. And I receive my guidance from many sources! Within- and in other dimensions! But unlike where I come from, I am not beholden to my roles. I am not enslaved to the dysfunctional structures I’ve escaped.
I’ve just spent a lovely time with two of my kids and their families in the Mountains and there is nothing like being me with them and cultivating real relating. We’ve seen our share of sorrow and pain and to be together in this way is the best! I am continuously holding ground in my healing journey. I so appreciate you and look forward to supporting you in whatever you will be sharing soon!
Love you!
So beautiful. Thank you, Mary.
I love you too
Coming back from almost dying—wait, did that really happen?—has gifted me a brand new motto: build back better. Be more embodied. Have less body (aka: lose some weight). Build up core strength. And maybe even get to the core of something, for once.
I think I’m finally on the other side of recovery mode. I’m writing and painting every day like someone who’s seen a DEADline—and lived to tell the tale. But now I’m not writing for the deadline… I’m writing for the aliveness of it. Like a love letter to the inner wise one who’s been waiting patiently while I spiraled, detoured, and got distracted by snacks. A love letter to the quiet wisdom within, the part of me that’s been whispering truths through all the noise.
I seem to have entered a phase where I’m choosing to wake up, tell the truth, and remember who I am—who we are.
I have no idea why it took me this long to get this excited about being here, and being me. And I realize now I was right on time all along.
Beautiful, Susan. Thank you for sharing. I love you.
This is such an important issue. I think grounded "spirituality" or embodied spirituality is key. I don't even like the term spirituality anymore because it reeks of separation. I have told myself for the last 4 years, my only job is to live the most intuitively led life I can. That is my agenda. No chasing processes. So wow please send our what you are thinking. There is probably a huge audience for it. I go through periods when I am embedded in the new thought world , and times when it I see all the toxicity around it in lots of ways.
"I don't even like the term spirituality anymore because it reeks of separation." - Oh yes, and superiority.
Thank you so much for your share.
When I started my channeling experience, all it was about was answering one question: Are we alone in the universe? While I answered that question, I also learned what it was to be a channel. I took a five year course and squeezed it into one year. It was dangerous, and I don't recommend it. Take the five year course, and learn these concepts one at a time is my advice now. Now, just over one year later, I'm writing about my experience with joy, awe, fear, and doubts. I remember what my guide, Linda, always tells me. She says, "Just write, Jose'. Don't concern yourself about the future. Because whatever you can imagine is only one possibility in an infinite number of possibilities. Just write. Write in the now because there is only now." This one thought has guided me through the most difficult obstacles I have ever faced, in my writing and in other areas of my life. Oh, I would buy and study your book. In a heartbeat, I would buy that book. Because, if for no other reason, I could ask my guides the same questions you have already asked. Confirmation on an idea is really important to me. I hope this note is helpful. I'm listening to "More Than a Feeling" by Boston. They were a great group with a message about going to the stars, a journey many of us will be taking in the future.
Thank you so much, Jose. I appreciate your message and your cheerleading here.
Post script: I'm becoming a better journalist. Thank you for being patient with me. I promise to give credit where credit is due at the proper time. Thank you for being one of several people who inspired my journal.
You're very welcome.
I too appreciate the authenticity you bring to all of your work, including your writing. Your honesty, even when it's messy or unpopular or unresolved, is one of the things that kept bringing me back when I first encountered your work. Coming from a church background and other systems that really want people to simply go along without questioning, the calling out of inconsistencies or greed or anything else that is disingenuous within a system . . . well, it is simply real. More than that, it is respectful to all of us who share in the same circles, and, in my opinion, points to a degree of authenticity and transparency that is much needed.
I struggle with sharing who I am, my insecurities, the messy middle of things, processes . . . life! I tell myself that some of it is due to the fear of hurting others in my life, but that's only a part, and maybe a small part at that. At the same time I so long to be seen and known and accepted. What others have said here resonates with me too . . . not wanting to be ostracized and also wanting my voice to be heard.
Life here feels like . . . . well, it feels like mid-summer. It's hot and a bit murky. Read that as inflamed and nebulous, with a side of obfuscation. Also - there is beauty in mid-summer. I love the smells of flowers and other plant life and the bird-songs and sigtings (saw a bald eagle & a heron last night). Thank you for including the flower picture! Yes - we can all use some more beauty!
Beautiful, Shannon. Thank you for all of your words and for sharing here.