This Venus retro was intense for me. I’ve made the decision that my mom and I are moving to Ojai by spring. I have an Airbnb for Dec 27-Feb 1 on Creek Rd. My partner is going to remain with his job in Hawaii while I go back and forth for 2024. My mom and I both do not want to remain in Hawaii any more and we both want a different life style , with me doing Acupuncture again etc.
I’m headed To Glastonbury for two weeks on Wednesday with my writing school.
I’m uneasy, vulnerable, nothing feels familiar, everything is different, but I feel alive again.
I’m definitely asking the fairies to join me and assist me on this journey.
A few weeks ago I contacted an old friend from our Vermont days. She is a book designer, consultant and well connected to many university presses as well as Library of congress. On a whim I asked her if she'd be my agent.. she replied, I'm not an agent, I said, well you are connected to all the acquisition editors... she said ok... today ( on the 1st try) looks like we have strong interest from a university press. As she was telling me this exciting news I looked up , I was in my sewing studio, and LOVE BIRD was there at that window!!!! I have not seen love bird for many months. She found me in my studio, a separate building, and she had to fly under an eave, into the tool shed part, where there is an interior window into the sewing part!! I smiled and watched her fly back out under the eave.
Now I will get an agreement written between myself and my new literary agent.
I guess I am ready for the world to see my book.
I have been very actively remembering, knowing, my wealth lives within, I have been intending that whatever I do will be done with ease and smiles. It feels good.
I am sorry for your losses and missing those beautiful kitties.
Sorry times feel so rough, Nora. Yes, give that Supreme Being a taste of their own medicine, and an EPIC yell for sure. In fact, I'd be happy to join in if I am around :-). I understand the grief you write of regarding Izzy and the Smurf. I was not triggered by your lovely narrative, but this one hit home and I miss every pet I've ever had, starting with Tweety (the parakeet) in 3rd grade. I, too, am so tired of worrying about money--same old, same old--enough said. Hang in there. You are much loved.
The Venus and Mercury retrograde combo has also been a doozy for me! Experiencing altered states of what I call “high dreams” and “low dreams” with regards to relationships, that swept me up more than usual … I have not even been able to try to “tuck my memories and vulnerabilities back in” (I laughed at this) as I have been preparing for an interstate move, so have been literally just sitting and sorting through my own mess for weeks! Every single item I own is out of its drawer or cupboard and strewn around as I sort through it all to whittle it down to what can fit in my car. Painful! But expecting to feel much lighter when I hit the the road on the 14/15th with all this stuff / experience / chapter of my life behind me! Sending love from Australia 💖🫶🌈✨
Jess! How lovely to hear from you. I am wishing you all of the best on your big move. Glad to have made you laugh. I was laughing on and off as I wrote this. Sending you love.
I feel so terribly angry. I want to be of service and to be lighter. I want us all to know our own worth and to claim it . . . Without any requirement of earning.
Okay - gentle, easy and Faeries. I just did a whole thing there between starting to comment and posting - rant, rage, FOAL - cry. And . . . Gentle. Easy. Faeries.
It is intense over here and yes finances!! and yet that takes us out of the flow and it's all so tricky and non-linear and comes when it does. The messaging behind that though, whew! so much to work with. So many losses and hardships, so much greif. I am thankful for Gratitude in these moments! And Mercury retro to a gemini is like breathing quicksand. I look 8 times for things, can't find them right in front of my face, there is so much trickery!! Holding on too and trying to find lightness and trust in it all. <3
Still feeling super raw over here too and woke up with money worries. But a bit more centered than the height of the retrograde. The peeling back layers is over and now it’s integration. I felt this weird grief all day yesterday and recognized some of it wasn’t mine only later to realize it was 9/11. I read several posts and the threads noticing a common theme of grief and anger at our government for failing to help people medically and that dove tailing into how our government fails to support the people. I let myself feel the grief (foal) then worked on bringing in some higher energies. I also notice how the collective is doing by how crazy it is to drive and it’s been non-stop crazy out there for the last couple of months!!! I used to notice it serving at restaurants but now the roads are my thermometer for the collective pulse.
I can not count the number of times now that another car has been driving straight towards me or at least partially in my lane over the past few months. Off the charts. The money worries. UGH! Sending you love.
Thank you for these honest and vulnerable threads Nora. It’s always such a nourishing space. Echoing others, these retrogrades have definitely been intense. Grateful to be towards the tail end of this phase and I also feel similarly about the equinox and the eclipses in October - a new phase coming in soon after the massive clearing we just went through / are still in.
I’m definitely feeling it. Money stuff, work stuff, feelings around authority and power - in my own world and the collective. Unease, deep anger and grief.
And, I also had some conversations with my mom where she was able to hear me and take in what I was saying, experiences from childhood, etc that I never thought would happen in my lifetime. That’s been real medicine. Made a business card randomly last week that I really love and feels like part of what’s coming. I’ll be on a family vacation in Croatia - our first since I was in 4th grade - over the equinox, which feels powerful in and of itself.
Trying not to brace too much and stay open to the feelings that are usually underneath the bracing. My oh my what wild waves we are living through.
Hi Nora, thanks for sharing all of this. And for this check in. I definitely resonate with a lot of what you are talking about. I had one of the money triggers rear its head to me, and I have been trying to figure out how to deal with these triggers and change how I respond to them. And I completely agree with you about how our society is set up with money. It makes no sense and is ridiculous. And I, for one, am sick of it. I am thinking about how lucky I am with my student loan issue right now and that led me down the road of thinking about student loans in general, and how people are complaining about what’s going on with some of us after 25 years getting forgiveness. I’m thinking that I paid my loan in full not counting interest, just like someone who actually had money to pay for college would’ve done. But because I did not have money, I had to take out a loan with predatory practices and predatory interest so the whole system is rigged against people who don’t have money and I’m just sick of it. And grief is up for me as well. My mom‘s birthday is Friday. Her first birthday since she’s been gone and the last day I saw her alive was a few days after her birthday. I am still struggling with how bad her life was, and all she had to deal with and how it had to be at the end. Finding out there’s some guilt there that I did not know it was there. Physically I’ve been a mess. I told my husband this morning that I feel like I’m falling apart.😁😂 I had a pretty bad migraine yesterday, my back went out again, my neck was more sore than it ever has been so much so that touching it made me groan out loud, and I pulled something in my shoulder. Geez! Something must be in the air.😆 Anyway, this is turning out longer than I thought. Thanks for the check in. Sending love to you and everyone.💜
Hey. I’m here and it’s working. 💜💜💜
This Venus retro was intense for me. I’ve made the decision that my mom and I are moving to Ojai by spring. I have an Airbnb for Dec 27-Feb 1 on Creek Rd. My partner is going to remain with his job in Hawaii while I go back and forth for 2024. My mom and I both do not want to remain in Hawaii any more and we both want a different life style , with me doing Acupuncture again etc.
I’m headed To Glastonbury for two weeks on Wednesday with my writing school.
I’m uneasy, vulnerable, nothing feels familiar, everything is different, but I feel alive again.
I’m definitely asking the fairies to join me and assist me on this journey.
Thank you so much for sharing, Vila. Those are some big moves. Sending you love as you make your way.
Vila, it's a relief you have made a decision! I'm happy for you!! You WILL definitely connect with the Fae in Glastonbury. Love to you.
A few weeks ago I contacted an old friend from our Vermont days. She is a book designer, consultant and well connected to many university presses as well as Library of congress. On a whim I asked her if she'd be my agent.. she replied, I'm not an agent, I said, well you are connected to all the acquisition editors... she said ok... today ( on the 1st try) looks like we have strong interest from a university press. As she was telling me this exciting news I looked up , I was in my sewing studio, and LOVE BIRD was there at that window!!!! I have not seen love bird for many months. She found me in my studio, a separate building, and she had to fly under an eave, into the tool shed part, where there is an interior window into the sewing part!! I smiled and watched her fly back out under the eave.
Now I will get an agreement written between myself and my new literary agent.
I guess I am ready for the world to see my book.
I have been very actively remembering, knowing, my wealth lives within, I have been intending that whatever I do will be done with ease and smiles. It feels good.
I am sorry for your losses and missing those beautiful kitties.
I love you Nora.
AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy to hear this!!!! I love you too :)
Huge congratulations, Susan! Let us know when the book can be preordered! I love how this piece came together for you.
Sorry times feel so rough, Nora. Yes, give that Supreme Being a taste of their own medicine, and an EPIC yell for sure. In fact, I'd be happy to join in if I am around :-). I understand the grief you write of regarding Izzy and the Smurf. I was not triggered by your lovely narrative, but this one hit home and I miss every pet I've ever had, starting with Tweety (the parakeet) in 3rd grade. I, too, am so tired of worrying about money--same old, same old--enough said. Hang in there. You are much loved.
Thank you, Kate. I love you too.
The Venus and Mercury retrograde combo has also been a doozy for me! Experiencing altered states of what I call “high dreams” and “low dreams” with regards to relationships, that swept me up more than usual … I have not even been able to try to “tuck my memories and vulnerabilities back in” (I laughed at this) as I have been preparing for an interstate move, so have been literally just sitting and sorting through my own mess for weeks! Every single item I own is out of its drawer or cupboard and strewn around as I sort through it all to whittle it down to what can fit in my car. Painful! But expecting to feel much lighter when I hit the the road on the 14/15th with all this stuff / experience / chapter of my life behind me! Sending love from Australia 💖🫶🌈✨
Jess! How lovely to hear from you. I am wishing you all of the best on your big move. Glad to have made you laugh. I was laughing on and off as I wrote this. Sending you love.
I feel so terribly angry. I want to be of service and to be lighter. I want us all to know our own worth and to claim it . . . Without any requirement of earning.
Okay - gentle, easy and Faeries. I just did a whole thing there between starting to comment and posting - rant, rage, FOAL - cry. And . . . Gentle. Easy. Faeries.
Thank you for the space. Love! ❤️❤️
I love you right back.
Schmelf!!
It is intense over here and yes finances!! and yet that takes us out of the flow and it's all so tricky and non-linear and comes when it does. The messaging behind that though, whew! so much to work with. So many losses and hardships, so much greif. I am thankful for Gratitude in these moments! And Mercury retro to a gemini is like breathing quicksand. I look 8 times for things, can't find them right in front of my face, there is so much trickery!! Holding on too and trying to find lightness and trust in it all. <3
Oh yes, gratitude is good. Sending you love, Kate.
I’m also finding that my grief is back, although not overwhelming like before, and I’m really missing both of our beagles who’ve transitioned.
I am so sorry, Kim. Sending you love.
Still feeling super raw over here too and woke up with money worries. But a bit more centered than the height of the retrograde. The peeling back layers is over and now it’s integration. I felt this weird grief all day yesterday and recognized some of it wasn’t mine only later to realize it was 9/11. I read several posts and the threads noticing a common theme of grief and anger at our government for failing to help people medically and that dove tailing into how our government fails to support the people. I let myself feel the grief (foal) then worked on bringing in some higher energies. I also notice how the collective is doing by how crazy it is to drive and it’s been non-stop crazy out there for the last couple of months!!! I used to notice it serving at restaurants but now the roads are my thermometer for the collective pulse.
I can not count the number of times now that another car has been driving straight towards me or at least partially in my lane over the past few months. Off the charts. The money worries. UGH! Sending you love.
So much UGH!!! 😤😅
Thank you for these honest and vulnerable threads Nora. It’s always such a nourishing space. Echoing others, these retrogrades have definitely been intense. Grateful to be towards the tail end of this phase and I also feel similarly about the equinox and the eclipses in October - a new phase coming in soon after the massive clearing we just went through / are still in.
I’m definitely feeling it. Money stuff, work stuff, feelings around authority and power - in my own world and the collective. Unease, deep anger and grief.
And, I also had some conversations with my mom where she was able to hear me and take in what I was saying, experiences from childhood, etc that I never thought would happen in my lifetime. That’s been real medicine. Made a business card randomly last week that I really love and feels like part of what’s coming. I’ll be on a family vacation in Croatia - our first since I was in 4th grade - over the equinox, which feels powerful in and of itself.
Trying not to brace too much and stay open to the feelings that are usually underneath the bracing. My oh my what wild waves we are living through.
You're welcome and thank you so much for sharing so beautifully. Sending you love and wishes for a wonderful journey.
Hi Nora, thanks for sharing all of this. And for this check in. I definitely resonate with a lot of what you are talking about. I had one of the money triggers rear its head to me, and I have been trying to figure out how to deal with these triggers and change how I respond to them. And I completely agree with you about how our society is set up with money. It makes no sense and is ridiculous. And I, for one, am sick of it. I am thinking about how lucky I am with my student loan issue right now and that led me down the road of thinking about student loans in general, and how people are complaining about what’s going on with some of us after 25 years getting forgiveness. I’m thinking that I paid my loan in full not counting interest, just like someone who actually had money to pay for college would’ve done. But because I did not have money, I had to take out a loan with predatory practices and predatory interest so the whole system is rigged against people who don’t have money and I’m just sick of it. And grief is up for me as well. My mom‘s birthday is Friday. Her first birthday since she’s been gone and the last day I saw her alive was a few days after her birthday. I am still struggling with how bad her life was, and all she had to deal with and how it had to be at the end. Finding out there’s some guilt there that I did not know it was there. Physically I’ve been a mess. I told my husband this morning that I feel like I’m falling apart.😁😂 I had a pretty bad migraine yesterday, my back went out again, my neck was more sore than it ever has been so much so that touching it made me groan out loud, and I pulled something in my shoulder. Geez! Something must be in the air.😆 Anyway, this is turning out longer than I thought. Thanks for the check in. Sending love to you and everyone.💜
Thank you so much for sharing. Sending you big love, Vicki.