I’m still moving through Covid, brought home from NYC. Today is also the 14th anniversary of Benjamin’s stillbirth. I was just talking with him at my Ancestor altar and will go get him treats (masked of course) at the store later. Your channeling helped me so much in the aftermath of that trauma. Thank you again and always.
So I’m tired and tender and grateful and okay. It’s going to be a gentle day.
I'm just moving back into the world after having Covid yet again, despite all the vaccines. I've had no symptoms for several days, but the fatigue and weakness lingers.
I'm really wrestling with grief right now. The 3rd will be 8 months since Nevan passed, and there's a deep core of my grief that I've avoided the entire time. I've processed many layers and let go of many different facets of the past and our life together, but there's this deep core that I've put away from the beginning because I knew if I tried to look at it too soon it would completely undo me. I've felt it slowly rising to the surface for about 2-3 months now, and it terrifies me. About a month ago my higher self told me flat out that I need to face this to move to the next stage of my journey and healing. I balked, and then got Covid a couple weeks later. I'm going to schedule a session early next week to unpack it because I don't feel like I have the capacity to hold this space for myself. I know I will be in good hands with this practitioner I deeply trust, but the enormity of the pain makes me quake in my own skin.
I want to run and hide, but the time for that has passed. The last four years have been a crucible, and I am forged solid and strong. I am sure of my path, and I will not be deterred by pain. I am afraid of it, but I will walk through it and come out stronger on the other side. I know what I am made of.
Thank you for creating this space to connect with us, Nora. It serves us well and I am so grateful for it.
I remember well what it was like to go from years spent in the (relatively brown other than the annual Greening) of southern California and Santa Fe to the lush green everything you look of the PNM and now New England. My senses and my spirit soaked it in, starving for it. Now I have my fill, and I'm like, trees, green, yep, got it. 😎
I’ve been processing and purging another layer of my own grief onion from my medical career burnout - something cosmic helping to bring this to the surface the last few days I’m sure, and I’ve been feeling all the feelings! Deep pain, frustration, sadness, but also mixed in with moments of genuine lightness and hope I don’t think I’ve felt in over four years since it all collapsed. The movement feels right. Your blog and writing continue to inspire me, and I am playing with the idea of telling my own story (writing a book? starting my own blog?) both to help me feel witnessed in my experience (something that has been lacking) and also maybe help others suffering the effects of all the broken systems on the planet right now, and help them not internalize that… I feel like a tree that fell in the forest and no one was around to hear it, but my tree mattered! And now I want someone or many someone’s to hear it! … 🌳
What a wonderful experience you had at the lake all those years ago!! I could stand a cool lake & some merbeings right about now. The hot flashes accompanied by the shingles-like symptoms have been kicking my butt these past couple of days.
I’ve done a bunch of planting this spring/ summer & most of it is doing well! That’s magical & beautiful and it’s fun watching everything grow.
For the physical, I made an appointment with a naturopath & practicing a daily well-being meditation. (Oof - so many words- maybe starting a blog should be on my list).
Wrapping up to say thank you, Nora, for your writing & sharing & for creating this space ❤️
Your writing always takes me back to my own Chicago days. Thanks for sharing the magic in all the ways.
I definitely relate to a lot of people here. Old stuff coming up the past week or so. Deep stuff from my mom especially that has filtered into how I approach or feel safe in or show up in my other relationships. Hard, but a good and needed movement for sure.
I’m curious what you and others here feel in terms of timelines. I have this powerful feeling that the fall is bringing massive change for me. Like there’s a train of change barreling towards me and there’s nothing I can do whether I want it to come or not. I feel this sense of change for others and us collectively as well. Should be very very interesting to see how the next few months play out.
Hugs to you Nora and everyone here. And happy Lugnasadh! (Oh! I recently got these Seasons of the Witch cards that I’m absolutely LOVING! There’s a deck for each of the 8 seasons on the Celtic wheel. I’ve had so much fun and joy playing with the Litha ones and I can’t wait to get this upcoming season’s!)
I love that you get to revisit Chicago through my writing.
Yes, the fall eclipses will be big along with Pluto bouncing back into Capricorn at the beginning of September, going direct there, and then forward into Aquarius again after the election.
Big changes for sure.
Thank you for being your wonderful vulnerable and powerful self here.
Happy Lugnasadh right back. That deck sounds amazing,
How magical and beautiful! Thanks for sharing. I love seeing all the flowers around. I am fighting a war with the earwigs this year for my herbs and kale and chard and they are eating whole plants as well but I still have some flowers and am enjoying them. I have been thinking of timelines lately, such a cool and interesting subject. I am trying not to be frustrated at money stuff with technology and connections not working right with companies (like insurance companies and another company's refund screwing up so they take more money instead of refunding an amount) and how it means I have deal with more crap and that makes me nuts. But it is an area I need to work on since nothing gets me stressed like this type of money issue. For now I want to enjoy the beauty around me and know everything is going to be okay.
I met a guy online 10 days ago and we got to chatting and vibed instantly. Before I met him, his name popped up in my mind many times as if I knew this guy was coming into my life. He brought out in me a self that was never seen before for me. He told me there is something in the energy that we share that really bounces off each other. It was very intense at times and when I told him that, he asked me to embrace it. He told me that he liked me and assured that this energy we feel will grow and adapt and not wear off. He stopped texting me two days ago out of no where when our last texts were normal. Since yesterday, I had this deep knowing that he is leaving and felt a lot a grief. And surely, today, he closed my chat and I’ve got no trace of him. Not his last name, not of his whereabouts, nothing. I am hurt! I feel like I deserved a goodbye. It is triggering my hurt of being deceived as I am feeling it to the fullest now. I know I won’t be feeling like this always but is so tiring to trust anymore!
I hope this lugnasadh brings me and all of us healing and courage to let go!!
I feel like I have a lot of pots cooking on the stove. 1) Holding a lot of fiery energy with clients (I did bring this one upon myself by intending for any clients who are withholding frustration and need new areas of growth that I may not be meeting in our session to be shown to me so I can better attune to their needs). 2) I’m fed up with some dynamics with friends/people and I don’t feel aligned with them. I’m trying to honor that but this is new growth territory and I don’t quite know what to do except that I want to feel treated well so I’m holding that as the focus. 3) Currently I’m partaking in a massive summer cleaning! Getting rid of old stuff and rearranging.
Overall, feels like a lot of clearing is happening individually and collectively.
But I also love this time of year. I’m a Leo and I thrive in the summer.
Happy Monday!
I’m still moving through Covid, brought home from NYC. Today is also the 14th anniversary of Benjamin’s stillbirth. I was just talking with him at my Ancestor altar and will go get him treats (masked of course) at the store later. Your channeling helped me so much in the aftermath of that trauma. Thank you again and always.
So I’m tired and tender and grateful and okay. It’s going to be a gentle day.
Sending you my love and gentle hugs and wishes for ease and speedy healing from COVID
Thanks, Nora 💕
I'm just moving back into the world after having Covid yet again, despite all the vaccines. I've had no symptoms for several days, but the fatigue and weakness lingers.
I'm really wrestling with grief right now. The 3rd will be 8 months since Nevan passed, and there's a deep core of my grief that I've avoided the entire time. I've processed many layers and let go of many different facets of the past and our life together, but there's this deep core that I've put away from the beginning because I knew if I tried to look at it too soon it would completely undo me. I've felt it slowly rising to the surface for about 2-3 months now, and it terrifies me. About a month ago my higher self told me flat out that I need to face this to move to the next stage of my journey and healing. I balked, and then got Covid a couple weeks later. I'm going to schedule a session early next week to unpack it because I don't feel like I have the capacity to hold this space for myself. I know I will be in good hands with this practitioner I deeply trust, but the enormity of the pain makes me quake in my own skin.
I want to run and hide, but the time for that has passed. The last four years have been a crucible, and I am forged solid and strong. I am sure of my path, and I will not be deterred by pain. I am afraid of it, but I will walk through it and come out stronger on the other side. I know what I am made of.
Thank you for creating this space to connect with us, Nora. It serves us well and I am so grateful for it.
Sending you my love, Amy Beth.
Thank you for your share.
I remember well what it was like to go from years spent in the (relatively brown other than the annual Greening) of southern California and Santa Fe to the lush green everything you look of the PNM and now New England. My senses and my spirit soaked it in, starving for it. Now I have my fill, and I'm like, trees, green, yep, got it. 😎
Yeah, the green and the flowers are such a balm.
I will miss everything turning green in December, however. It's going to be very different here then. LOL
I’ve been processing and purging another layer of my own grief onion from my medical career burnout - something cosmic helping to bring this to the surface the last few days I’m sure, and I’ve been feeling all the feelings! Deep pain, frustration, sadness, but also mixed in with moments of genuine lightness and hope I don’t think I’ve felt in over four years since it all collapsed. The movement feels right. Your blog and writing continue to inspire me, and I am playing with the idea of telling my own story (writing a book? starting my own blog?) both to help me feel witnessed in my experience (something that has been lacking) and also maybe help others suffering the effects of all the broken systems on the planet right now, and help them not internalize that… I feel like a tree that fell in the forest and no one was around to hear it, but my tree mattered! And now I want someone or many someone’s to hear it! … 🌳
Thank you for sharing. What an exciting idea.
I love it and you!
What a wonderful experience you had at the lake all those years ago!! I could stand a cool lake & some merbeings right about now. The hot flashes accompanied by the shingles-like symptoms have been kicking my butt these past couple of days.
I’ve done a bunch of planting this spring/ summer & most of it is doing well! That’s magical & beautiful and it’s fun watching everything grow.
For the physical, I made an appointment with a naturopath & practicing a daily well-being meditation. (Oof - so many words- maybe starting a blog should be on my list).
Wrapping up to say thank you, Nora, for your writing & sharing & for creating this space ❤️
Also - have you noticed how joy is popping up everywhere? - Olympics, politics, and all of the blooming things 💐🌱🧚🏻♀️🌺
Yes! The joy is expanding!
Healing and love and hugs and all good things for you.
Your writing always takes me back to my own Chicago days. Thanks for sharing the magic in all the ways.
I definitely relate to a lot of people here. Old stuff coming up the past week or so. Deep stuff from my mom especially that has filtered into how I approach or feel safe in or show up in my other relationships. Hard, but a good and needed movement for sure.
I’m curious what you and others here feel in terms of timelines. I have this powerful feeling that the fall is bringing massive change for me. Like there’s a train of change barreling towards me and there’s nothing I can do whether I want it to come or not. I feel this sense of change for others and us collectively as well. Should be very very interesting to see how the next few months play out.
Hugs to you Nora and everyone here. And happy Lugnasadh! (Oh! I recently got these Seasons of the Witch cards that I’m absolutely LOVING! There’s a deck for each of the 8 seasons on the Celtic wheel. I’ve had so much fun and joy playing with the Litha ones and I can’t wait to get this upcoming season’s!)
I love that you get to revisit Chicago through my writing.
Yes, the fall eclipses will be big along with Pluto bouncing back into Capricorn at the beginning of September, going direct there, and then forward into Aquarius again after the election.
Big changes for sure.
Thank you for being your wonderful vulnerable and powerful self here.
Happy Lugnasadh right back. That deck sounds amazing,
How magical and beautiful! Thanks for sharing. I love seeing all the flowers around. I am fighting a war with the earwigs this year for my herbs and kale and chard and they are eating whole plants as well but I still have some flowers and am enjoying them. I have been thinking of timelines lately, such a cool and interesting subject. I am trying not to be frustrated at money stuff with technology and connections not working right with companies (like insurance companies and another company's refund screwing up so they take more money instead of refunding an amount) and how it means I have deal with more crap and that makes me nuts. But it is an area I need to work on since nothing gets me stressed like this type of money issue. For now I want to enjoy the beauty around me and know everything is going to be okay.
That last sentence you wrote. That's a powerful spell.
Thanks for that. I will make it my mantra this month. 🌞💜
I met a guy online 10 days ago and we got to chatting and vibed instantly. Before I met him, his name popped up in my mind many times as if I knew this guy was coming into my life. He brought out in me a self that was never seen before for me. He told me there is something in the energy that we share that really bounces off each other. It was very intense at times and when I told him that, he asked me to embrace it. He told me that he liked me and assured that this energy we feel will grow and adapt and not wear off. He stopped texting me two days ago out of no where when our last texts were normal. Since yesterday, I had this deep knowing that he is leaving and felt a lot a grief. And surely, today, he closed my chat and I’ve got no trace of him. Not his last name, not of his whereabouts, nothing. I am hurt! I feel like I deserved a goodbye. It is triggering my hurt of being deceived as I am feeling it to the fullest now. I know I won’t be feeling like this always but is so tiring to trust anymore!
I hope this lugnasadh brings me and all of us healing and courage to let go!!
I am so sorry, Vasundhara.
Sending you so much love today and always.
I feel like I have a lot of pots cooking on the stove. 1) Holding a lot of fiery energy with clients (I did bring this one upon myself by intending for any clients who are withholding frustration and need new areas of growth that I may not be meeting in our session to be shown to me so I can better attune to their needs). 2) I’m fed up with some dynamics with friends/people and I don’t feel aligned with them. I’m trying to honor that but this is new growth territory and I don’t quite know what to do except that I want to feel treated well so I’m holding that as the focus. 3) Currently I’m partaking in a massive summer cleaning! Getting rid of old stuff and rearranging.
Overall, feels like a lot of clearing is happening individually and collectively.
But I also love this time of year. I’m a Leo and I thrive in the summer.
Feeling you roar beautifully and sending you my love.
🦁💗💗💗💗✨✨✨