I am also heartbroken, the hostage situation is terrifying and hitting my hard. I’ve just returned from an almost month in Glastonbury, where I hiked the Tor, or Fairy hill , as the locals call it.
I feel exactly what you are saying. The patriarchy, war loving, violence that this system has forced onto this world.
I am full of welled up tears. Both Michael and I noted that we are feeling a sense of looming.. of course with the nightmare in the middle east and Ukraine etc.. it's apparently easy to know where this feeling comes from. I pray for peace and NO MORE horrors, and I pray that good and love happens NOW. As I said this outloud Michael came back in the house to say there is a doe giving birth under the tree next to my studio.
I too am horrified by the violence happening in Israel and the Gaza strip. Today, however, my thoughts are full of something much closer to home. My husband has lung cancer and completed a course of radiation at the end of March. Tomorrow morning he goes for a PET scan to see how the cancer responded, and we see the doctor to learn the results tomorrow afternoon. This will be the first time we will have a prognosis. Previously all we knew was that he had 1-2 years with no treatment. We are both anxious and having trouble sleeping, and our 20 year old son is the same. Filled with a complex mixture of dread and hope, all I can do is trust the river and see where it takes us.
I’m sending all the best to you and your husband Amy. I hope there’s grace and spaciousness with however tomorrow goes, and fingers crossed that it’s good news. 🙏🏼💕
I can't. Even look at any of the coverage. It's too much. Overwhelmed by sadness, frustration, and hopelessness. oh, and rage. And I feel like I've already felt enough rage for many lifetimes.... and so I'm frustrated and exhausted by that as well. well, really exhausted by injustice. Suffice to say a fucking cluster.
I ditto much of what’s been written here already. I arrived back from my vacation with my parents last week and the jet lag has been kicking my butt. My stomach is slowly coming back, but it’s been a much longer process than I expected. All around really sliggish and low energy. Then adding this collective pain on top, has just done me in.
And more than the pain for the atrocities themselves, I find myself going back and forth between hopeless that our world will ever change and that humans are doomed to repeat these cycles of trauma forever and ever and then rage and anger and this feeling of invisibility - wanting to scream and shake people awake and yet no one sees or hears me or changes. Then back to hopeless, then back to rage. Me in my own cycle between the two forever.
It's intense. I feel sad about the devastating current events. In Australia we also have this referendum coming up (yes/no vote)on whether to create an indigenous advisory voice in parliament. There's been a horrific amount of mis information and co-option which has affected some who probably would've voted yes. Having an indigenous voice in parliament is THE LEAST we can do in my opinion, yet an important step forward. My heart hurts because the vote is such a frought process, it's just humming away in the background down here amongst all the other stuff unfolding. Amongst it all is hope...
Yes, I know about what's happening in Australia right now and the attempts to keep whyte supremacy as the governing force. I am so sorry. Sending you love and wishes that this goes the way it should, the inclusive route.
I do know that, as you said death to the patriarchy, it is dying. It is ending and while that fact gives me hope and helps me through these times, it is so hard to see how horrible it is as it struggles to keep control. I just keep telling myself that these times are ending and it is slowly getting better. But what is happening is just so horrible and heartbreaking. I don’t even know what to think or at times like this how to keep up hope. I am just doing my best to hold love in my heart, and I hope that the more love that we all feel the harder it will be for things like this to continue. But man, sometimes it is so hard to hold love in my heart when I just want to rage and scream at how awful people are, and how much people are suffering. I have been feeling horrendous grief this week. And after reading your post again, it made me realize why I was feeling it. I was trying to figure out exactly where it was coming from within me but I think a lot of it is what’s going on in Israel and Ukraine.
I am also heartbroken, the hostage situation is terrifying and hitting my hard. I’ve just returned from an almost month in Glastonbury, where I hiked the Tor, or Fairy hill , as the locals call it.
I feel exactly what you are saying. The patriarchy, war loving, violence that this system has forced onto this world.
Sending you love, Vila
Thank you Nora.💚💚💚
I’m gutted and raw.
Sending you love, Marcy
Love to you too sweet Nora❤️
I am full of welled up tears. Both Michael and I noted that we are feeling a sense of looming.. of course with the nightmare in the middle east and Ukraine etc.. it's apparently easy to know where this feeling comes from. I pray for peace and NO MORE horrors, and I pray that good and love happens NOW. As I said this outloud Michael came back in the house to say there is a doe giving birth under the tree next to my studio.
To everyone everywhere I send love.
Sending love right back. Beautiful birth outside your studio.
I too am horrified by the violence happening in Israel and the Gaza strip. Today, however, my thoughts are full of something much closer to home. My husband has lung cancer and completed a course of radiation at the end of March. Tomorrow morning he goes for a PET scan to see how the cancer responded, and we see the doctor to learn the results tomorrow afternoon. This will be the first time we will have a prognosis. Previously all we knew was that he had 1-2 years with no treatment. We are both anxious and having trouble sleeping, and our 20 year old son is the same. Filled with a complex mixture of dread and hope, all I can do is trust the river and see where it takes us.
I’m sending all the best to you and your husband Amy. I hope there’s grace and spaciousness with however tomorrow goes, and fingers crossed that it’s good news. 🙏🏼💕
Wishing for the highest possible outcome for you all and sending you my love.
I am sorry. I send you loving thoughts
Sending love & healing energy to you and your family ❤️
🙏🙏
I can't. Even look at any of the coverage. It's too much. Overwhelmed by sadness, frustration, and hopelessness. oh, and rage. And I feel like I've already felt enough rage for many lifetimes.... and so I'm frustrated and exhausted by that as well. well, really exhausted by injustice. Suffice to say a fucking cluster.
Sending you love, Susie. It is all too terrible.
It is. Sending love back atcha. <3
I ditto much of what’s been written here already. I arrived back from my vacation with my parents last week and the jet lag has been kicking my butt. My stomach is slowly coming back, but it’s been a much longer process than I expected. All around really sliggish and low energy. Then adding this collective pain on top, has just done me in.
And more than the pain for the atrocities themselves, I find myself going back and forth between hopeless that our world will ever change and that humans are doomed to repeat these cycles of trauma forever and ever and then rage and anger and this feeling of invisibility - wanting to scream and shake people awake and yet no one sees or hears me or changes. Then back to hopeless, then back to rage. Me in my own cycle between the two forever.
I understand this cycle. Sending you my love, Helen.
Heart is heavy. Echoing what everyone is saying here. Thats all I’ve got today. Love to you all. 🤍🕊️
Sending love right back.
It's intense. I feel sad about the devastating current events. In Australia we also have this referendum coming up (yes/no vote)on whether to create an indigenous advisory voice in parliament. There's been a horrific amount of mis information and co-option which has affected some who probably would've voted yes. Having an indigenous voice in parliament is THE LEAST we can do in my opinion, yet an important step forward. My heart hurts because the vote is such a frought process, it's just humming away in the background down here amongst all the other stuff unfolding. Amongst it all is hope...
Yes, I know about what's happening in Australia right now and the attempts to keep whyte supremacy as the governing force. I am so sorry. Sending you love and wishes that this goes the way it should, the inclusive route.
Holding peace & love for all as well. ❤️🌍❤️🌏❤️🌏❤️
Thank you, Shannon. Sending you love.
So much sadness. But I too feel there are many, many more people who want a world of peace.
Death to the patriarchy!
Thank you, Mary. Sending you love.
🤞🖤❤💛 thanks Nora...
I do know that, as you said death to the patriarchy, it is dying. It is ending and while that fact gives me hope and helps me through these times, it is so hard to see how horrible it is as it struggles to keep control. I just keep telling myself that these times are ending and it is slowly getting better. But what is happening is just so horrible and heartbreaking. I don’t even know what to think or at times like this how to keep up hope. I am just doing my best to hold love in my heart, and I hope that the more love that we all feel the harder it will be for things like this to continue. But man, sometimes it is so hard to hold love in my heart when I just want to rage and scream at how awful people are, and how much people are suffering. I have been feeling horrendous grief this week. And after reading your post again, it made me realize why I was feeling it. I was trying to figure out exactly where it was coming from within me but I think a lot of it is what’s going on in Israel and Ukraine.
Yes, it's all so much. I love you.
All I have is tears and sadness for myself, and this world. It’s really all too much. Praying for relief for all. 🌍🙏♥️☮️
yes, thank you, Linda and sending you love