Hi Nora! This is a tired Susan here. I did an expansive healing session with my energy worker, part 2 of 2, clearing my soul’s patterns, beliefs, and agreements, much more too, all around the dark dark trauma of multitudes of lifetimes. And the no pain, no gain paradigm, around the major issue of fear of being attacked. Phew. I always think it takes 48-72 hours for me to have the transformation fully shift and settle. My session was on Sat. Today I am okay. Thank you always for the constant reminder of LOVE. I truly appreciate YOU.
Hello Nora and fellow survivors. I am currently in a study group for the book CPTSD from Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker. It is a truly magnificent work on healing childhood trauma and abuse. I cannot recommend it enough for anyone who wants to heal at a much deeper level. May the blessings be.
Hey Nora! Thanks for speaking to both the density of every day life as well as the joy and the love. I appreciate you sharing as you do. I am feeling cranky . . . I’ve got a kind of script running that says people don’t listen or try enough. It’s interesting- I could spin it to look at my own participation in - well, several aspects of life, but I’m thinking about healing right now. So - how could I engage or be more present AND active in my healing - without being a task master? I could do that. Do I want to? Sometimes.
Okay- back to giving edits on grant applications. Good connecting with you and the peeps here. ❤️
I love what the energies will be after November 19. It sounds so wonderful and I am ready for it. You know it is interesting that when we hitch our wagon to someone else we sort of enter into their family crap too. Lots of what you say resonates because of my husband’s mother. I do have bitterness and anger about money issues with her along with her just because a selfish person and horrible mother. She gave so much money to strangers while making us feel guilty about the times we practically had to beg for a loan a couple times when we needed it. And after his dad passed she no longer had to act like she cared, so it is awful now and I feel so bad for my husband. Luckily he finally got to experience a real Mom with my Mom when we got married and I know that means the world to him. But thanks for your words because it reminds me I need to let go of any anger at her and move along as I can’t give her space in my head and energy.
I am pretty decent and having lots of insights and hope for the future. Love to you!
Thank you for your candid insights. And sharing your experiences. I facilitated a Reiki 2 today. I feel the strong love energy. And I too continue to move trauma and do my best to regulate my nervous system. Yes childhood trauma. Mostly parentified child. Eldest of 8. So much abandonment as I set healthy boundaries.
As I read your words today I felt an opening. Maybe my next book will be a memoir!
It's been a while since I tuned into this space and it's so lovely to come back to. Dare I say come back home to. You've always felt like family to me Nora and I'm so grateful for your vulnerability and self-witnessing. The realness. I'm so very lucky to have found you early on in my journey and to get to evolve and grow as you do too and stay connected through the evolutions.
In my life, I got some really scary test results back a few weeks ago and it's been a ride since then. An abnormal pap became cervical dysplasia with a higher grade than expected. Since then I've been pre-grieving my life in many ways, reckoning with life and death, and reckoning with who this character that is Helen is that I've been playing with for so many years. The amount of grief, anger, loss, fear, confusion, more grief, more anger, more fear that has been moving through me is insane.
But, the realization that everything before this moment has ALREADY died, it is already gone, has been enormously beneficial for me. I can see where I've been trying to bring all the past me's with me into the future and it doesn't work that way. It has spurred a massive wave of decluttering in my life which feels fantastic, and has also helped me process more fear and loss. My space is feeling lighter than ever and I feel like I'm shedding a layer of insulation between me and the rest of the world.
In that process, I've also reckoned with feelings of outside people telling me what to do with my body, which has definitely been a fractal of the larger collective energies right now. I've flowed into connection with a naturopath in Connecticut who has been treating cervical dysplasia with more holistic care and great results for 15 years and it's now 50% of her practice. I feel lucky and grateful and will begin traveling up to CT at the end of October to do this my way, not pushing off western medicine, but not jumping when the doctors tell me to jump either.
Thank you for the space to share. Sending you a big, loving hug.
Your insights are spot on and speak to me on so many levels right now. Thanks for being such a vulnerable, genuine, open hearted human 💙🕉️✨
Thank you so much, Cathi. Sending you my love.
Hi Nora! This is a tired Susan here. I did an expansive healing session with my energy worker, part 2 of 2, clearing my soul’s patterns, beliefs, and agreements, much more too, all around the dark dark trauma of multitudes of lifetimes. And the no pain, no gain paradigm, around the major issue of fear of being attacked. Phew. I always think it takes 48-72 hours for me to have the transformation fully shift and settle. My session was on Sat. Today I am okay. Thank you always for the constant reminder of LOVE. I truly appreciate YOU.
Susan, thank you so much for sharing about this powerful process you are engaged in. May this transformation be all that you desire and more.
I love and appreciate you
Thank you, thank you!
Susan, I’m interested in doing some trauma healing; did the work you did actually do what you were expecting?
Hello Nora and fellow survivors. I am currently in a study group for the book CPTSD from Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker. It is a truly magnificent work on healing childhood trauma and abuse. I cannot recommend it enough for anyone who wants to heal at a much deeper level. May the blessings be.
Thank you so much for the info. Sending you my love.
The book Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay Gibson is also phenomenal. Love the directness of the title too, lol!
Anne, may I ask how you find a group like this to work with? Is there a 12 step program?
https://adultchildren.org/meeting-search/#mtslresult
Hey Nora! Thanks for speaking to both the density of every day life as well as the joy and the love. I appreciate you sharing as you do. I am feeling cranky . . . I’ve got a kind of script running that says people don’t listen or try enough. It’s interesting- I could spin it to look at my own participation in - well, several aspects of life, but I’m thinking about healing right now. So - how could I engage or be more present AND active in my healing - without being a task master? I could do that. Do I want to? Sometimes.
Okay- back to giving edits on grant applications. Good connecting with you and the peeps here. ❤️
Hi Shannon,
Thank you for being so available and real here.
As I read your comment, especially the word "cranky" I realized I was hungry (and cranky, hangry to be exact).
May your application process fly smoothly
Hugs and love right back
I love what the energies will be after November 19. It sounds so wonderful and I am ready for it. You know it is interesting that when we hitch our wagon to someone else we sort of enter into their family crap too. Lots of what you say resonates because of my husband’s mother. I do have bitterness and anger about money issues with her along with her just because a selfish person and horrible mother. She gave so much money to strangers while making us feel guilty about the times we practically had to beg for a loan a couple times when we needed it. And after his dad passed she no longer had to act like she cared, so it is awful now and I feel so bad for my husband. Luckily he finally got to experience a real Mom with my Mom when we got married and I know that means the world to him. But thanks for your words because it reminds me I need to let go of any anger at her and move along as I can’t give her space in my head and energy.
I am pretty decent and having lots of insights and hope for the future. Love to you!
Thank you for sharing, Vicki. I am so sorry for what he and then you have experienced with her. Sending you love right back.
Thanks Nora. 🩷
Hi Nora,
Thank you for your candid insights. And sharing your experiences. I facilitated a Reiki 2 today. I feel the strong love energy. And I too continue to move trauma and do my best to regulate my nervous system. Yes childhood trauma. Mostly parentified child. Eldest of 8. So much abandonment as I set healthy boundaries.
As I read your words today I felt an opening. Maybe my next book will be a memoir!
So much love to you!
Mary
Thank you for sharing, Mary.
So much love right back.
It's been a while since I tuned into this space and it's so lovely to come back to. Dare I say come back home to. You've always felt like family to me Nora and I'm so grateful for your vulnerability and self-witnessing. The realness. I'm so very lucky to have found you early on in my journey and to get to evolve and grow as you do too and stay connected through the evolutions.
In my life, I got some really scary test results back a few weeks ago and it's been a ride since then. An abnormal pap became cervical dysplasia with a higher grade than expected. Since then I've been pre-grieving my life in many ways, reckoning with life and death, and reckoning with who this character that is Helen is that I've been playing with for so many years. The amount of grief, anger, loss, fear, confusion, more grief, more anger, more fear that has been moving through me is insane.
But, the realization that everything before this moment has ALREADY died, it is already gone, has been enormously beneficial for me. I can see where I've been trying to bring all the past me's with me into the future and it doesn't work that way. It has spurred a massive wave of decluttering in my life which feels fantastic, and has also helped me process more fear and loss. My space is feeling lighter than ever and I feel like I'm shedding a layer of insulation between me and the rest of the world.
In that process, I've also reckoned with feelings of outside people telling me what to do with my body, which has definitely been a fractal of the larger collective energies right now. I've flowed into connection with a naturopath in Connecticut who has been treating cervical dysplasia with more holistic care and great results for 15 years and it's now 50% of her practice. I feel lucky and grateful and will begin traveling up to CT at the end of October to do this my way, not pushing off western medicine, but not jumping when the doctors tell me to jump either.
Thank you for the space to share. Sending you a big, loving hug.
Oh my goodness, Helen.
I am so sorry for what you're going through. This is a lot.
Sending you my love and support. I am happy you have found a healer that you feel aligned with.
I love that I feel like family to you.
Hugs and love right back
Great good luck on your healing journey!